Well, look at it this way:
One job (my full time) - I was working 4 x 10 hour shifts per week, with the weekends off.
Another job (part time) - I was working up to 2 x 4 hour shifts per week, and I was able to pick and choose my schedule as long as it was done so the week before, or, it would chosen for me.
After I got sick, the following occurred to my career, which nearly ended it:
- I quit my part time job within a month, giving them 2 weeks notice after 2 weeks sick and noticing that I wasn't recovering.
- In 2005, on top of using up 3 weeks of vacation time after becoming sick in early June, I also called in sick 9 times, and left work early about a dozen times.
- In all of 2006, again I used up 3 weeks of vacation, again called in sick a bunch of times, again left work early a bunch of times, and I spent 6 months on disability.
- Edit - During the time that I did spend at work while sick, I took longer breaks, showed up late, worked at a slow pace, and got a lot of complaints from coworkers. I was not winning any employee of the month awards, that's for sure. In fact, one guy wanted me canned so badly that he secretly began to petition our superiors to let me go. And the only reason I found out was because after he was fired for being caught drinking while on the job, my boss spilled the beans on the whole thing.
I wasn't fired after calling in sick so many times was because I obtained every medical asked for.
While on disability in late 2006, I had to borrow money from my siblings, and I had to cut into a large portion of my retirement savings in order to not file for bankruptcy. Good thing my insurance company allows one emergency withdrawal each year, or I don't know what I would have done. I'm with Manulife Financial by the way.
I even pawned some stuff at one point before deciding to contact Manulife. It's okay though because I eventually bought it all back afterwards.
As this all began back in mid-2005, I feel it's important to stress that after 9 years, it's not as easy for me anymore to recall intricate details of events, but I do remember having issues with sleep and work-related stress for months before it all came crashing down, so to speak.
In fact, I managed to find this post from early 2005 in the Bodybuilding.com forums, which I posted because of severe insomnia (I didn't tell them about my recreational drug use because it's not a popular topic around there), which you can read if you wish: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=396374&page=1
Edit - I don't remember who I told this to, so I'll write it again just in case: Back when I was suffering from my 19 month ordeal, I made a promise to myself that if I was to recover fully, that I would try to help others going through similar circumstances. I recovered thankfully, and the years went by. And then by chance, I noticed that someone had created this thread, and I remembered my promise, so here I am.
Well, hate to say it, but that makes me feel better.....lol. I was about to award you some sort of medal. Yeah, I'm fucked. I am just about dead broke now and I need to work, but at this point I'm scared. I'm not sure I'm there cognitively yet or maybe it's an inability to focus properly. I don't know. I used to do pretty well in the financial business and I still have the intelligence. This is all so incredibly stressful.
By the way, those dosages of SSRI's you talk about are really high. I'm on 20 mg of Paxil and the max dosage recommended is 60, but 20 is supposed to be the therapeutic dose.