Did u find it gave u any visual issues?
Not really but it did give me a feeling of pressure behind the eyes. Perhaps many months ago it may have aggravated visual snow & floaters but those have ceased now.
Hold up--so your VS is actually gone now?!
How about tinnitus?
Yes, gone. Tbh it was more of an all-pervasive DR/DP which affected my vision. It was as if my sight was out of sync, perspective distortion, blurriness and I do recall visual snow but now it's either gone, or massively reduced to the point where it doesn't concern me. After studying everything for a second I noticed that it is still there but not causing any disorientation.
Tinnitus was never one of my major symptoms. There was a point where it was particularly loud and bothering me but it's definitely got better, or my perception of it has.
Oh ok yea that makes more sense. I definitely have had moments where I am either doing well and I don't notice the tinnitus+VS at all OR interstingly when I'm on the flip side I am in a horrible setback and those symptoms 'recede' because the other mood/anxiety stuff takes precedence.
I never had the perspective distortion or whatever though in terms of vision just visual snow. And never had persisting DP/DR except after the ketamine I tried recently but the DP/DR from it subsided after 6 weeks.
My symptoms in the beginning were quite similar to OP here though who doesn't seem to have the DP/DR.
So what are your worst symptoms right now? The ones that are causing you pain or anguish.
My experiences are the same as yours right now by the sounds of it.
Low mood which fluctuates throughout the day. It seems at least once a day I have a sort of dip/trough in a wave which like as you put, I also can't 'remember' once I'm out of it. It's also very difficult to pinpoint why I am despairing. But it makes me anxious as it's unprovoked, confusing and overall just debilitating.
I'm also much better off at night and has been the case since the beginning.
Unlike you I've steered clear of benzos just because I've managed without and feel like they could become a crutch very quickly.
Could you please remind me what caused your affliction? I've lost the thread of how yours began.
I try to limit my benzo to once to twice a week. Right now im on a holiday from them. Its almost 2 weeks but I don't think I can go longer than that. My goal was 4 but its so hard to fully enjoy things and its summer vacation. Resolves most my symptoms when i take it. Agreed its a crutch as you can see once you experience that degree of relief.
MDMA caused it but it was delayed to 4-5 weeks later. I recovered from the initial comedown in a weekthinking I was out of that hellhole only to experience the problem again drinking a few weeks after.
Right now im able to drink without problems if I stay less than 3 drinks.
If Mirtazapine was helping why did you come off? Did it not help with the remaining symptoms and only helped with the more severe stuff or what?
Worst case scenario I am going to look into hormone therapies but that is still some time away.