phactor
Bluelighter
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- Nov 13, 2002
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dude I'm really happy for you
you handled this well and are still clean
that's such progress man
I'm in a relationship and I don't know how I'd handle it if it ended. But I expect it will go on for a long time.
Yeah, like I said I was totally off guard. She called me this morning and was kept saying "I hope I am making the right decision" and all of that. I cannot help but get angry over that. One of the hardest things was I waited and waited and supported her the whole time. Not that I would take that back, but its like "wait, I dealt with all this pain of having you away and the pain of you relapsing and this is what I get?" She is doing "whatever it takes" and being proactive when I look at it at the end of the day. And I do not want to cause her to go back out or anything.
Thankfully, our relationship is good and I can say all of this to her.
Its also really difficult knowing that we both still love each other and care for each other but yet somehow we are supposed to stop all of this? I literally have no idea what I am supposed to do. I haven't really been in a relationship before.
Thanx poke yea im coming up on 100 days benzo and opaite free
I am very proud of myself it was very hard and still is and is doable
It definetly gets easier i would say at around the 3 month mark is wheb i stopped thinking about getting high all day evreyday
I think its more that once you hit 3 months you really dont want to give that time back
Also the fact that i did it myself this time without going to treatment also makes me want to keep going
I hope youre doing well dont let your relative get to you to much
Yeah, for me doing it without treatment was a huge bonus for me. It just forced me to get out there and learn to live life without using. Of course, this involved me staying busy and going to lots of meetings and whatnot. Not something I would recommend for most.
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