I used to not think much of withdrawal from herb, or really even believe that it existed, until today. I've experienced some of the worst withdrawals the world of drugs has to offer-- heroin more times than I care to remember and worst of all: methadone. I've been clean from opiates and all other drugs for about 3 years now but continue smoking herb. I've tried quitting pot many times unsuccessfully, though there have also been times that I naturally drift away from it , but when I TRY to stop I can't, despite having quit everything else including cigarettes and alcohol. I think this has had a lot to do with my view on it as pretty much "not bad" and benign and thus my quitting attempts were never as hardcore, though I've felt that I might be more productive and maybe a little happier if I quit. I've been through opiate withdrawal so many times that the thought of pot withdrawal seemed totally laughable.
Well, today would have been my second day without any, as I ran out of what seemed like an endless supply, and I foresaw a natural drift away from pot again with pretty much indifference, which in past has been a precursor to a state of not smoking. However, last night I had the most vivid fucked up dreams and woke up feeling very affected and irritable. When I got to my office and started working on my computer the internet was a little slow and I felt like I was gonna scream and throw my cell phone against the wall or something, instead I smashed my fist on the desk real hard, which is stupid and totally out of character for me. Not to mention I had a headache, sweaty palms, a and pit of dread in my stomach and just a general feeling of being pissed and that things aren't O.K.. I got onto thinking that it might be from no pot so I looked up withdrawal symptoms online and found this forum which hit the nail on what I was feeling too. I've probably been through cannabis withdrawal before but just never realized it or attributed the symptoms to something else. Today I found some shwag in a deep dark corner of my house and decided to light up, as I wasn't officially trying to stop, and I wanted to see if it would make the discomfort go away, and of coarse it did.
I don't want to be drug dependent. It's been a way too common a theme in my life. Though at the same time I can't find it in me to get that worked up and worried about being addicted to pot given the severity of my previous transgressions. However It's seeming like this might be a bigger monkey on my back than I thought and might take more effort than I realized to really stop for good. I think I'm just gonna take it easy and cut way down and hop off from a lower level to hamper the discomfort.
Best to all those struggling, and just keep in mind, although it is uncomfortable, It is a roll in a pillow factory (as someone posted previously) compared other drugs. Bad dreams? Opiate withdrawal = no sleep at all.
-Tris