Hello everyone, so I don't really knew where to put this thread, but ok, in "psychedelics" I think it's fine.
So to explain the situation, since a really long long time I'm used to switch between "feeling too much, too good", or "entering into a deep depression" with substances abuse (it could also happen when I'm ''good'', because of disinhibition, something we need to pay attention at).
I have a long history of substances abuse, heroin, crack..mostly, but I came out of all of this, still with just as little as 25mg Methadone now (I think it's just there so that I have something (semi-placebo), don't really need it as I used to need it when I was put on Methadone at 75mg; for example I can forget to take it on day, without any disconfort, and take half of my dose the next day and still be fine, but ok I don't do that often, it just happens haha.
So yeah because of this severe mood swings (they said I'm bipolar with anxiety disorder related to PTSD..fine..but it doesn't help me to know that), all right I can see why I'm strange at this day, I think everyone is a bit strange, no? Everyone has is life experience, a unique vision of Reality..
They tried a lot of medications, nothing really worked, I was just unable to think clearly (Quetiapine/Seroquel &Co), coupled with benzos, or I was on the edge of severe anxiety (worse than without SSRI, for example, just to mention that, and the lost of libido, I don't think it's a good way to try to feel better, if you have to say goodbye to sex) the only thing that helped (maybe) at some point was Bupropion; but I quit all of these, it was not a funny time, I still use benzos at low dosage.
So you have a vision of my situation.
Now, I know I have a panic disorder/panic attacks, on witch I'm working to manage it better and better, mostly related to my "ill' mood, if I can say it like that.
Here comes the question, I have seen at several times, that when I consume LSD, I'm really good for days, weeks and sometimes months after the initial trip.
I mean, no anxiety, no mania or depression, just a "normal being human" (and it doesn't erase my creativity like the drugs they gave me, it's all the opposit, and I need it, I mean I always painted and wrote a lot, played a lot of music, all of that vanished with neuroleptics, and I missed that a lot).
I tried to microdose, but honestly I always took a bit much than a "microdose", but still a low dose (like 30-50ug).
And it is working really great, I use it at times when I'm prepared to it, maybe once in a 3 to 4 months period, but I think if I really wanted all the goods it can give me, I may have to took it once all 2 months maybe.
I'm so sad it's illegal, because I finally found something that helps me greatly (without being a useless man), with the help of psychedelics I almost quit benzos, it also helped me while I was taking brown and C, like a "refresh" button.
Do other people suffering from same conditions or related and who also find psychedelics to be a great helper ?
Really, I tried a lot of medications, and finally I see that taking minimal doses of LSD once in a while helps me a lot, shame that this therapy is not conventional, I think it could help many others.
Of course everyone reacts differently, so I don't recommend to someone to do the same, maybe it will be worse...it is a double edge.
And yes another question, I never had "return" of lsd-like effect, I mean I never had a "bad flashback" or something, but today I'm feeling like I just took acid, but yes I took a really low dose yesterday, but really I went out with that space-head so familiar with LSD, maybe I have gained a normal tolerance to it again, I was used to take big trips, regularly, and I knew I had to take more than most others because of tolerance, now I should be at baseline, great .
Thanks for reading!
So to explain the situation, since a really long long time I'm used to switch between "feeling too much, too good", or "entering into a deep depression" with substances abuse (it could also happen when I'm ''good'', because of disinhibition, something we need to pay attention at).
I have a long history of substances abuse, heroin, crack..mostly, but I came out of all of this, still with just as little as 25mg Methadone now (I think it's just there so that I have something (semi-placebo), don't really need it as I used to need it when I was put on Methadone at 75mg; for example I can forget to take it on day, without any disconfort, and take half of my dose the next day and still be fine, but ok I don't do that often, it just happens haha.
So yeah because of this severe mood swings (they said I'm bipolar with anxiety disorder related to PTSD..fine..but it doesn't help me to know that), all right I can see why I'm strange at this day, I think everyone is a bit strange, no? Everyone has is life experience, a unique vision of Reality..
They tried a lot of medications, nothing really worked, I was just unable to think clearly (Quetiapine/Seroquel &Co), coupled with benzos, or I was on the edge of severe anxiety (worse than without SSRI, for example, just to mention that, and the lost of libido, I don't think it's a good way to try to feel better, if you have to say goodbye to sex) the only thing that helped (maybe) at some point was Bupropion; but I quit all of these, it was not a funny time, I still use benzos at low dosage.
So you have a vision of my situation.
Now, I know I have a panic disorder/panic attacks, on witch I'm working to manage it better and better, mostly related to my "ill' mood, if I can say it like that.
Here comes the question, I have seen at several times, that when I consume LSD, I'm really good for days, weeks and sometimes months after the initial trip.
I mean, no anxiety, no mania or depression, just a "normal being human" (and it doesn't erase my creativity like the drugs they gave me, it's all the opposit, and I need it, I mean I always painted and wrote a lot, played a lot of music, all of that vanished with neuroleptics, and I missed that a lot).
I tried to microdose, but honestly I always took a bit much than a "microdose", but still a low dose (like 30-50ug).
And it is working really great, I use it at times when I'm prepared to it, maybe once in a 3 to 4 months period, but I think if I really wanted all the goods it can give me, I may have to took it once all 2 months maybe.
I'm so sad it's illegal, because I finally found something that helps me greatly (without being a useless man), with the help of psychedelics I almost quit benzos, it also helped me while I was taking brown and C, like a "refresh" button.
Do other people suffering from same conditions or related and who also find psychedelics to be a great helper ?
Really, I tried a lot of medications, and finally I see that taking minimal doses of LSD once in a while helps me a lot, shame that this therapy is not conventional, I think it could help many others.
Of course everyone reacts differently, so I don't recommend to someone to do the same, maybe it will be worse...it is a double edge.
And yes another question, I never had "return" of lsd-like effect, I mean I never had a "bad flashback" or something, but today I'm feeling like I just took acid, but yes I took a really low dose yesterday, but really I went out with that space-head so familiar with LSD, maybe I have gained a normal tolerance to it again, I was used to take big trips, regularly, and I knew I had to take more than most others because of tolerance, now I should be at baseline, great .
Thanks for reading!