Grinders Kiefers
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 15, 2007
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Part of it was physical... but if I'm in the clear of terrible physical dependence, which I think I am for the most part, why does that internal alarm go off every goddamn day telling me "it's time to take the edge off."
I think you answered it yourself in the last post. After 20-something years of drug use, you've probably become accustomed to getting high to cope with all sorts of feelings, positive or negative - boredom, depression, and anxiety, but also joy, contentment, and success. Remember that you have a choice on whether or not to use drugs for whatever reason, and that may be the only control you have at times. The hardest moments are usually the ones that you can look back at and feel good about making the right choice in the struggle.