Pick something and do it. If you dont try to achieve something in life you might end up feeling like you wasted your life.
And then i would say; trust me i know.
Sorry to let you down, Max.
It just has struck me for some time that not wanting to be alone is the prime motivator for most people doing most of what they do, once basic survival needs have been met. You might not understand someone's exact reasons for doing what they do. But chances are they're just trying to feel more connected (and perhaps going about it all wrong). This is the key to being compassionate, rather than fearful or suspicious, toward people you don't get, or even don't like!