Alright guys, I'm in the hospital right now and just registered this account to see if anybody can relate to what the fuck just happened to me.
On Saturday at about 4PM, I met up with a couple of old college friends and took acid (maybe 200ug or so). This was after nearly 5 months of depression-induced social isolation. I originally quit college due to suicidal thoughts in Spring of this year. I thought that the depression had subsided and that my state of mind was solid enough for acid, but it clearly wasn't.
Anyways, I'll try to let you know what I DO remember (which isn't much). I was just relaxing on my friend's bed, listening to music, and talking/thinking about random shit. I remember having some nihilistic thoughts (i.e. God doesn't exist, there's no meaning or purpose to anything, we are just animals who think we're smarter than we really are, etc.). The next thing I remember is waking up in the ER with 3 broken ribs and a broken sacrum.
I'm not exaggerating; what happened in between those two extremes is completely blocked out from my memory. I have to take my friend's word on what happened in between, which is this (from a text message):
'I went and got moes, came back and listened to music with you then you strarted acting weird and I asked you if you wanted to walk or something, then you got up and went to the mirror and then wnt back and forth between my room and the living room for a while then went on the balcony and I saw you on the ground a couple minutes later'
Also, according to him, I was fully conscious on the ground and was talking to the paramedics. I don't remember this, of course.
What the fuck? Has anyone ever heard of something this ridiculous happening to someone on acid? Btw, I had already taken acid one time (last December), and it was a positive experience. Also, it's likely that this was completely legit acid (bought online).
My worst fear is that I was trying to kill myself. The acid presumably brought up some repressed mental issues and compelled me to jump off the balcony. This is the only explanation I can think of that makes sense.
On Saturday at about 4PM, I met up with a couple of old college friends and took acid (maybe 200ug or so). This was after nearly 5 months of depression-induced social isolation. I originally quit college due to suicidal thoughts in Spring of this year. I thought that the depression had subsided and that my state of mind was solid enough for acid, but it clearly wasn't.
Anyways, I'll try to let you know what I DO remember (which isn't much). I was just relaxing on my friend's bed, listening to music, and talking/thinking about random shit. I remember having some nihilistic thoughts (i.e. God doesn't exist, there's no meaning or purpose to anything, we are just animals who think we're smarter than we really are, etc.). The next thing I remember is waking up in the ER with 3 broken ribs and a broken sacrum.
I'm not exaggerating; what happened in between those two extremes is completely blocked out from my memory. I have to take my friend's word on what happened in between, which is this (from a text message):
'I went and got moes, came back and listened to music with you then you strarted acting weird and I asked you if you wanted to walk or something, then you got up and went to the mirror and then wnt back and forth between my room and the living room for a while then went on the balcony and I saw you on the ground a couple minutes later'
Also, according to him, I was fully conscious on the ground and was talking to the paramedics. I don't remember this, of course.
What the fuck? Has anyone ever heard of something this ridiculous happening to someone on acid? Btw, I had already taken acid one time (last December), and it was a positive experience. Also, it's likely that this was completely legit acid (bought online).
My worst fear is that I was trying to kill myself. The acid presumably brought up some repressed mental issues and compelled me to jump off the balcony. This is the only explanation I can think of that makes sense.