Hey all, so incase you might be wondering how the night panned out here's how... I wont go into full detail unless you ask for specifics but heres how it went... I'll start by saying I'm going to have to accept the fact that she just might not be into me sexually. We met, had a good dinner with great conversation. We walked and help hands and she bundled up into me as it was cold. We stopped in at a local cafe for coffee and desert. While there we talked and laughed and engaged again in eye contact. She suggested we go check out the Rockefeller tree. We took the metro there and held hands again and I played up my kino in public on the train. I then said lets go grab a drink. She said ok there's a cool hotel by the park. We proceeded through the park where we talked and connected more. This is when I went in and kissed her after we were looking at each other. She turned away and I caught her cheek. I personally felt the time was right. However, I can tell she was uncomfortable. Maybe bad timing I suppose. She felt a little put off I think by it too. I kept it cool and continued to proceed. She then said I think I'm gonna go home I feel really tired. At this point I said "no drinks?" She said another time I feel really tired. So I walked with her through the park to the subway, she said she had a great time and I said great. I was going to go for another kiss again but it wasn't right so I left it at that.
I was going to come out and tell her "look (name), the dynamics of our friendship on my end has changed. I'm attracted to you and I'm not sure if you feel the same but I don't think I can continue hanging out with you playing games with the flirting crap." However, I thought that would be a weak move so I just left it to burry. I think I'm not going to contact her again for a while. I think I made it clear to her what I want but she doesn't feel the same. Going out on dates with her is great and all, we have good times but its also wasting my time as I want her sexually. Spread your thoughts... was thinking that maybe I should just be straight up tell her how I feel.
I can honestly say though that I'm pretty glad that I went in for the kiss even though she didn't reciprocate. It made me feel a lot better than not going at all. Plus I think she knows where I stand. If she get's back at me I'm just gonna have to fall back if she wants to hang again. I can't keep doing this crap. However, it was definitely worth it.
I was going to come out and tell her "look (name), the dynamics of our friendship on my end has changed. I'm attracted to you and I'm not sure if you feel the same but I don't think I can continue hanging out with you playing games with the flirting crap." However, I thought that would be a weak move so I just left it to burry. I think I'm not going to contact her again for a while. I think I made it clear to her what I want but she doesn't feel the same. Going out on dates with her is great and all, we have good times but its also wasting my time as I want her sexually. Spread your thoughts... was thinking that maybe I should just be straight up tell her how I feel.
I can honestly say though that I'm pretty glad that I went in for the kiss even though she didn't reciprocate. It made me feel a lot better than not going at all. Plus I think she knows where I stand. If she get's back at me I'm just gonna have to fall back if she wants to hang again. I can't keep doing this crap. However, it was definitely worth it.
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