No problem.
As mentioned I was using a friends dab rig as it seemed most convenient but he thought maybe I wasn't getting all of the dose, but Idk if that really makes sense. SNRI involvement likely did have an impact, even at a low dose, I'd been on it for years so there was definitely a good amount built up in my body. It's not like a heated nail rig, it's one of those glass ones, I think we read that the nail rigs will just destroy it or something. All I know is the glass rig works.
I've had a lot of struggles this year with my mental health, so I guess it's almost self-destructive, in a way... but it's yin and yang. I don't think it should do any harm to me. Maybe it would be a difficult trip, I'm sure it would be, but I've maintained for awhile that if things ever got to the point where I feel life is too much, I'll go all the way. I always found DMT was like a factory reset button for my brain. Even though 50mg was very difficult, my mental health was suddenly quite a bit better the following week, though I felt some mild derealization at times, and one night, randomly, I woke up and I was tripping for about 10 seconds. Possible link of DMT to dreaming? Unsure, but it was certainly startling.
That night of the 50mg an old friend came by and we had a great time and I felt very good, cleansed I suppose. I have OCD and it literally went away for an entire week, like completely. I suppose it wasn't the worst freakout, I mostly was hungup about feeling nauseous because of the anxiety, and I'm emitaphobic. Perhaps I'll take an anti-nausea pill beforehand just in case. I have Zofran that my GP prescribed earlier this year for bloating, which was kind of silly considering I didn't feel nausea. My stomach was just wrecked by antibiotics. This shit saved my life after sinus surgery when waterfalls of blood were going down my throat last May/June, especially the first night when I had lingering effects of the anesthesia and then taking oxy. I would've puked my brains out if it weren't for Zofran.
I'll experiment with lower amounts first, because even before I quit my SNRI, he had a 2nd batch that looked much darker, almost like breaded mac & cheese, and it seemed to be a lot stronger than his original. Tough to say, I only sampled it once. I was going to trip on Saturday but he was busy, so I'm shooting for Wednesday. I may just go all in, but maybe I shouldn't. I do take amitryptaline at the moment, which may complicate things. This is known to potentiate LSD, and probably applies to any tryptamine, unsure. I took 2g of mushrooms in early August and I tripped so insanely hard it's not even funny, just 2g. Either they were way too strong or the TCA was potentiating it. Perhaps I'll stop taking it for a few days, it's useless shit anyway. This was the last class of anti-depressants I'd never tried and it's done zilch for me. No anti-depressant has ever worked for me, and many of them made things worse. Microdoses of shrooms, though, are the fucking best.