It may have ruined my chance to get with someone I really wanted. I held back with her when I wanted to just go with every feeling. The kind I had (the virus still with) was diagnosed as non harmful. Not a big risk for cancer. My ex gave it to me and basically blamed me for it, when by the time I got them the only possible partner that I got them from was her/she had more recent sexual partners before me.
I don't mean to rant. She attacked me months after we broke up, after I had moved on, and basically gave me something to remember her by. I remember feeling them come in. People say you can't but I remember tingling or stinging while at work prior to her saying.
-I know it seems like I have a grudge against her for it... But the main thing I have against her is that she assumed I was the vector and blamed me-
Hmm.
Then one girl told me she wished I had not told her about it. So honestly it is confusing what to say about this. And it isn't as if she was "dirty" or anything. But the telling about it was a big turn off. She told me some things I should keep to myself.
Considering what neversickanymore said, I assume most sexually active people have some form of it, and it remains asymptomatic... It is kind of unfair having awareness and being rejected based on on this, when the one rejecting probably has some form of it too.
But yea, it's tricky.
I no longer have symptoms. Haven't for like 5 years. Smoking makes it more likely you'll show lesions, and makes the risk for high risk types greater. I quit smoking.
It fucked me up for years. Considering how much of a non problem it is unless you are immunocompromised... The grief doesn't seem worth it. I mean condoms don't even prevent it. And I'm pretty sure giving head and receiving are also routes of transmission, and who uses condoms/dental dams for that? Maybe a good idea, though.
Quit smoking. Eat healthy. Lots of vitamin C, E, D, etc... Life is short. Something's gonna kill you eventually, and it probably won't be HPV.
