Why do you think it damages your kidneys? And why did the needle cause tissue loss?I’ve been on and off heroin and suboxone for almost 6 years. Went to jail December 2018 got out February of 2020 and went back to using heroin. Except now everything has fentanyl in it. I used to be able to take suboxone as soon as 12 hours after my last dose of heroin and I shoot it. When I went to a sub dr last year he told me I would have to wait 72 hours before I could take it or I would go into precipitated withdrawals. And the man was right. I waited somewhere between 36 and 48 hours and was sick as hell when I took it and went into PWDs. Eventually I just ran out of money and lost my job and my car wouldn’t run and I tapered down off of H just resoaking cottons and shooting them until the water was clear. Took about a week to feel normal but I got clean like that in November 2020. Was clean about a week and sold my suboxone to make money and ended up getting heroin. Been back on the Heroin/Fentanyl train since. I finally had to stop IVing because after 6 years and never really having great veins to begin with plus not being able to get new/clean needles. All my veins have terrible scar tissue from using the same rig for months at a time. I’ve been “skin popping” in my upper thighs, upper arms and in my butt. I’ve noticed recently in my thighs and my butt the places I injected into went from having these round knots to losing all fat in that area like the dope just ate up the fat/tissue. This SCARES the living crap out of me so I need to get clean ASAP. Tired of having knots and bruises all over my body. Plus who knows the long term damage I’m doing to the tissue injecting god knows what into it. I’m a female and I think it’s been since I got clean that shirt amount of time in November since I’ve had my period. I feel like my body is shutting down. Pretty sure my kidneys are getting close to shutting down. I’ve started using coke again to stay awake at work because the amount of H it takes for me to get well also makes me nod/fall asleep if it’s a batch with fent in it. All in all it’s just time to stop. It’s not fun anymore. Never really was after the first month honestly. Don’t know why I keep going back to it.
I’ve been drinking nothing but water lately and my urine is close to orange everyday. Smells like straight ammonia. Something isn’t right with my kidneys. I just feel like the amount for drugs I’ve been using is slowly shutting me down. I use a gram or more of H a day and about a dub to half a gram of coke a day. Not sure what caused the tissue loss other than shooting heroin straight into my tissue multiple times a day. Possibly infection beneath the surface of my skin? Sometimes the area I would skin pop in would be red/sore for a day or two but I never got an abscess that had to be drained or anything or that bubbled up like I did when I would miss an IV shot. Once I injected straight into my thigh/ass I would get a knot there for a few weeks. Then I would notice once the knot disappeared it was like I would have a dent or like crater where the fat or tissue got eaten away from the dope I injected. I was watching “botched” the other day and the drs were talking about like when people get silicone ass injections it can create granulomas (like the knots I was feeling) or sometimes injecting something under the skin can introduce bacteria that eats away at the tissue in the area. So I’m not sure. It just scares me enough that I’m actually actively trying to decrease my use and stop. I take the steps to use alcohol swabs now and clean needles every time to try and prevent an infection. Because I know with skin popping I could easily get an infection and get sepsis and lose a limb or die.Why do you think it damages your kidneys? And why did the needle cause tissue loss?
I’ve been drinking nothing but water lately and my urine is close to orange everyday. Smells like straight ammonia. Something isn’t right with my kidneys. I just feel like the amount for drugs I’ve been using is slowly shutting me down. I use a gram or more of H a day and about a dub to half a gram of coke a day. Not sure what caused the tissue loss other than shooting heroin straight into my tissue multiple times a day. Possibly infection beneath the surface of my skin? Sometimes the area I would skin pop in would be red/sore for a day or two but I never got an abscess that had to be drained or anything or that bubbled up like I did when I would miss an IV shot. Once I injected straight into my thigh/ass I would get a knot there for a few weeks. Then I would notice once the knot disappeared it was like I would have a dent or like crater where the fat or tissue got eaten away from the dope I injected. I was watching “botched” the other day and the drs were talking about like when people get silicone ass injections it can create granulomas (like the knots I was feeling) or sometimes injecting something under the skin can introduce bacteria that eats away at the tissue in the area. So I’m not sure. It just scares me enough that I’m actually actively trying to decrease my use and stop. I take the steps to use alcohol swabs now and clean needles every time to try and prevent an infection. Because I know with skin popping I could easily get an infection and get sepsis and lose a limb or die.
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My urine has often smelled like that and often been orangish without any dehydration. I did ultrasounds and blood/urine tests which were normal. Could be many possible causes. But like the fellow above suggested get some tests to be sure. Your body is probably not shutting down.I’ve been drinking nothing but water lately and my urine is close to orange everyday. Smells like straight ammonia. Something isn’t right with my kidneys. I just feel like the amount for drugs I’ve been using is slowly shutting me down. I use a gram or more of H a day and about a dub to half a gram of coke a day. Not sure what caused the tissue loss other than shooting heroin straight into my tissue multiple times a day. Possibly infection beneath the surface of my skin? Sometimes the area I would skin pop in would be red/sore for a day or two but I never got an abscess that had to be drained or anything or that bubbled up like I did when I would miss an IV shot. Once I injected straight into my thigh/ass I would get a knot there for a few weeks. Then I would notice once the knot disappeared it was like I would have a dent or like crater where the fat or tissue got eaten away from the dope I injected. I was watching “botched” the other day and the drs were talking about like when people get silicone ass injections it can create granulomas (like the knots I was feeling) or sometimes injecting something under the skin can introduce bacteria that eats away at the tissue in the area. So I’m not sure. It just scares me enough that I’m actually actively trying to decrease my use and stop. I take the steps to use alcohol swabs now and clean needles every time to try and prevent an infection. Because I know with skin popping I could easily get an infection and get sepsis and lose a limb or die.
I was coming off of suboxone/heroin when I was in jail. Took me about a month to detox. The main thing was sweating profusely everydayMy urine has often smelled like that and often been orangish without any dehydration. I did ultrasounds and blood/urine tests which were normal. Could be many possible causes. But like the fellow above suggested get some tests to be sure. Your body is probably not shutting down.
Any chance to quit the drugs?
BTW, how did you feel in jail if you were hooked to H going off cold Turkey?
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Betteer thAn hustling erday, thats no fking life.I've been on and off opioids for about 20 years. I'm currently on bupe and planning to staying on it for long term, possibly never coming off.
I think the same as you , taking Tramadol 200mg (otc un my country) AND i dont. Plan on coming off en ever. I have chronic pain aswell so it's justified imoI've been on and off opioids for about 20 years. I'm currently on bupe and planning to staying on it for long term, possibly never coming off.
Why never come off?I've been on and off opioids for about 20 years. I'm currently on bupe and planning to staying on it for long term, possibly never coming off.
I have come off and hopped back on so many times i've lost the track. Last time after quitting I was completely sober for a year and i realized i just do not feel well without some sort of medication, so I started taking buprenorphine again .I've tried virtually every type of antidepressant available and none of them has helped at all. On buprenorphine I feel considerably less depressed than when being "'sober" (i do not think I'm intoxicated at all on daily bupe). In my situation i don't see a reason to come off. Why go through withdrawals if it only leads to lessening your quality of life.Why never come off?
You are not the only person who I met that is using sub permanently for depression. I am afraid that will be the case with me as well. Just like you said I feel so depressed when not on something and no antidepressant has any effect.I have come off and hopped back on so many times i've lost the track. Last time after quitting I was completely sober for a year and i realized i just do not feel well without some sort of medication, so I started taking buprenorphine again .I've tried virtually every type of antidepressant available and none of them has helped at all. On buprenorphine I feel considerably less depressed than when being "'sober" (i do not think I'm intoxicated at all on daily bupe). In my situation i don't see a reason to come off. Why go through withdrawals if it only leads to lessening your quality of life.