Still a little high right now but holy shit man I got so so high last night! I ate half a gram of this exceptionally good bud melted into a chocolate bar (you might only smoke a bowl or so of it to get baked). It went down something like this:
8:15 pm- finished ingesting it
9:00 pm- really hit me hard felt like i melted, as I got into the couch out of the corner of my eye I was contracting into myself and it looked like this weird symbol but when i looked at it it wasnt there.
9:15 pm- the wall in front of me looked like it was moving in kind of a "breathing" way
10:15- felt some nausea, thougts just out of control. i feel like my mind is out of control. I look in the mirror and see myself as a laughing bufoon but the mirror really looks like another person
10:25- I go into the shower, which feels amazing. I have some really strange ideas that are just racing out of control and at points my vision is filled with a crack on the wall of my bathtub. It fully consumes my vision and blurs in this bizzare way. I keep getting these points of almost total disconnection from reality
10:50- I sit down in the bath tub and feel as if I am in an impossibly drunken state. My feet look really fat and this adds to the drunken feeling
11:10- I get out of the tub fearful that my landlord will find me if I stay in the tub (made no sense at all) i was just completely out of reality. I look at my door for an eviction notice (of course there was none) but when i looked out the outdoors somehow looked to me like another universe and I could faintly make out this rasta dude in my reflection as I stared out into space in this nonreality way. Then my faint reflection became like an alien and I started thinking about the limits of my mind and had this idea about going to war with aliens but decided that this would freak me out and was a bad idea (clearly, I had no idea where I was or what was going on). My hands turned kind of blue in the tub and I looked up about a marijuana overdose (even though I was familiar with these types of experieces from other times Ive done this) and I decided not to worry as it is a pretty safe drug
11:15- I felt sick still and layed on my bed. Things warped a little and my general level of disconnection reality continued (as it did until morning). After this part, everything somehow feels very hazy but not in a blackout kind of way, just in a bizzare sense. When I walk I can see I am doing this drugged shuffle. I get a phone call and get up. Ahhhhhh! Im found out? Am I? Of course I didnt answer it but I listened to my voicemail and realized I didnt have to answer so I was in luck
11:30- I sit in my couch for a while and contemplate various personal things I dont want to talk about. Also, I stopped feeling so sick. When I get up I feel like I can barely move yet I feel weightless. I mentally relive different parts of my life
12:00- I continue to contemplate and around this time I got a drink of juice. it was truly amazing like i could taste the colors of it
1:00-I lay in bed and things begin to get very very warped looking. My fan looks like some sort of flower with the pedals (the fan blades) pointed downwards. The walls look thick and like some sort of drifting liquid. My mind is consumed by symbolism. I feel truly out of reality. i have no idea where i am or anything. all i can think of are things that any sober person would find nonsensical. I say some nonsense words to myself
1:25- I get up from bed and go to the computer to look something up that I forget now. I am still just contemplating life so the internet is just a hazy memory
1:28- I feel a letting up of the effects and begin to feel a bit normal, but this only lasts for a moment
1:30- the effects are back in full force and getting even stronger. I listen to some eminem. i look and see if eminem is a trippy thing to listen to (I have a fear that it could somehow freak me out but I know that it wont). People dont seem to think so but I think it feels so dark and amazing. I then listen to jai ho from slumdog millionaire which is amazing
2:30- I contemplate sleeping as I am getting tired, yet I am still extremely messed up
2:46- I go straight to bed and say a few things uncontrollably after starting to fall asleep a bit. Time basically stops and at one point it looked like the second hand moved backwards. As I am falling asleep my closet door is bending and I can faintly make out a face in the grate of the air vent in my room. I think of my first job and realized how I kind of fucked that up. I drift off to sleep listening to my ipod. I realize I need to be less self-destructive and that I am going too far with drugs. I realize I need to be more respectful of my body at this point and I need to take better care of myself. As I drift off to sleep I have a closed eye visual of some patterns and imagine all sorts of symbols that were somehow related to my childhood. i also had closed eye visuals of some faces. I remember some of the stupid things I did when I was younger. During this experience it felt like I was reliving various points of my life.
8:00- I wake up still incredibly high but less than I was at night (saw some sort of visual distortion I think)
12:30- I wake up still very fucked up. At points I stil was getting this strange "breathing" or moving of things. I showered again and when I layed down in the tub I got that super-drunk feeling again
2:30- I contemplate religion and how my experiences relate to it. Things still move and stuff at times. I decide to become a buhdist. The table moves a little out of the corner of my eye. I go out to take bottles back to the store. On the way I feel as if the lights of cars look a bit like eyes and occasionally signs and things kind of "bounce" a little. However, I can function at this point, at least well enough to safely be out in public without doing anything too stupid. I get a package of cookies and walk around town eating them. I listen to my ipod and contemplate
4:00- Return home, contemplate some more. i decide to go to an improv comedy night as I am feeling pretty functional at this point but very very high. At points I can get/sense a bit of "moving" when looking at things
4:30- successfully talk to parents. I still feel kind of "stoned" though
5:15- Leave for the comedy workshop. Find that I must have looked for the wrong day and I wandered home. I felt somehow destitute for some strange reason. I felt like a loser. I decided to take the path of enlightenment that I have just found, I mean I already decided but I just affirmed my decision
6:45- got home, still feeling kind of high
8:00- High feels like it wearing off but still present and may come back to some extent at some point
whatever, Adderall's good too, i guess.
