datpancakemix
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- May 19, 2017
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So, I made a completely stupid move that belittles my intelligence on every level and was hoping to get some advice on my future. Please feel free to bash me, but just know i do enough of that to myself already.
*Previous Drug Related Exp: 34 years old - 10 years of smoking marijuana everyday, Never had any anxiety or depression in my life, I only drink when i do coke and I just started cocaine 6-8x lines once a month for the past year and have done mdma 200-300mg around 4x previously once a month at the same time i was doing cocaine ( i know coke kinda blocks the effects from mdma but did it neways, which led to my underestimation of the drug )
< 3 weeks ago >
So on April 25th, approx 3 weeks ago, ( only did Molly this nite, nothing else, and nothing for a month or so prior ) I ingested 700 mg of Molly, then another 500 around 6 hours later and 200 mg an hour or so after. I was having alot of fun at the time /w an insignificant other in my Jacuzzi ( we didn't get too crazy, just making out for a very long time ) which i was constantly making either cool or hot depending on how i felt every 30 min or so. An erection was near impossible, but I guess still fun at the time. After around 14 hours i decided It was a failed experiment and decided to go to sleep, which later found out was no easy task, so i spent the next 24 hours up playing video games, during this time i just felt awake and i think i was up for a combined total of around 70 hours, mentally i was fairly sound, until i was in bed, then i started having what i later learned to be brain zaps, felt like i was going unconscious, but not quite, very scary.. especially having a brother who is epileptic, but eventually i went to sleep. The next day i still had them, but it wasn't as bad and within 36 hours the zaps went away.
<2 weeks ago >
For the Next 3-4 days my Brain was extremely foggy and still is to this day but much better than it was intially, 0 ability to focus ( but that later improved ), during this time i had an icepack and fan blowing on me and packed at all hours except when i was asleep, eating salmon everyday, v8 and also taking htp-5 capsules 2 a day to help restore serotonin which after 3 days i stopped. After about 4 days of this I pussied out and went to the emergency room cause of anxiety out of what i had done and to get any kinda of prescription to help the comedown. They gave me lorazepam which i consumed for the next 5 days every 6 hours. After that, I decided to stop using the drug as to better ascertain my ability to focus. After this i decided to tell my family and spend sometime in their company to relieve the anxiety i was feeling that these side effects would never go away. After 4 days with them, i decided to go back home.
<Present>
I had extensive blood work done, all normal. Cat scan Normal, Still feeling the effects, but everyday there is slight improvement but i feel it's plateau'd. My Focus and Concentration are back to around 70% of what it used to be, I Enjoy and get excited and happy at the same things and to the same levels as i did before, but everyday for the past 25 days my temperature has been elevated from around 1 to 1.5 degrees above normal, which is kinda of driving me crazy as i need a fan blowing on me most of the day, i can no longer enjoy video games or work. The heat only subsides for 1 hour at the start of the day and while i'm in bed with my eyes shut, after about an hour of this and fans and icepacks cooling me, i am able to sustain a normal temperature, but within 5 minutes of opening my eyes again, my temperature goes back up. it's always rite around 99.6 degrees or so and i feel it's constant, it hasn't gone down much since the very beginning. Once a week my hearing becomes acute for several hours, no buzzing or ringing, just very sensitive.
I excersized for the first time in a long time 1 week ago, that day i felt a negative appetite had to go to emergency for low potassium and puffing up, which was later diagnosed as anxiety and the doctor said i may have burned through some of the mdma trapped in fatty tissue, that same night i would close my eyes and my imagination was augmented with a bit of color. Contrary to this I feel like my emotions have returned, i'm the same as i am before, no depression or anxiety most of the time, but when i get brain fog for several hours then it comes back, like it is right now. I was prescribed Zyprexa, It did give me some Appetite, which i have not had for these past 3 weeks at all, even thou i'm eating healthy. But After one dose, i decided that my anxiety and ability to sleep was not so bad to warrant it, so i stopped.
I've read that MDMA constricts your blood vessels in the brain and that mdma could also remain in the brain for sometime. I think my temperature is due to the constricting blood vessels and my brain repairing itself to a certain degree. I also think the Brain Fogginess might have something to do with that, but i do not know and the doctors and psychiatrists i've spoken to seem to just shrug off any questions with very little explanation. Maybe i will have better luck being referred to a neurologist? Will a Pet Scan and monitoring of my blood vessels help me, has anyone experienced this sort of approach and can give advice as to what i can expect? ( still trying to find an experienced neurologist, any that are known in the los angeles area to be experienced in mdma overdoses*, i would very much appreciate it if anyone could drop me their contact info )
My question is... based on what i've said. When will my temperature return to normal? is it possible that it is malignant? has anybody experienced this increase in temperature that has lasted for 3 weeks consistently everyday? and when will this Brain Fogginess subside, will it go away when my temperature goes away or will it remain afterwards, i don't know? These past 3 weeks i've done no drugs, but i feel like my progress has reached a plateau, my emotions and happiness are back but my anxiety is constantly at odds with my progress. I appreciate any and all criticism or advice, I just want to be normal again and i know there are many people in much worse situations than myself which i feel so sorry for and have scared me into never doing this drug again and for that i give my condolences and apologies to any one who is offended by anything i've said, i've been reading everyday for the past few weeks and this is my first post. So take it easy on me.
*Previous Drug Related Exp: 34 years old - 10 years of smoking marijuana everyday, Never had any anxiety or depression in my life, I only drink when i do coke and I just started cocaine 6-8x lines once a month for the past year and have done mdma 200-300mg around 4x previously once a month at the same time i was doing cocaine ( i know coke kinda blocks the effects from mdma but did it neways, which led to my underestimation of the drug )
< 3 weeks ago >
So on April 25th, approx 3 weeks ago, ( only did Molly this nite, nothing else, and nothing for a month or so prior ) I ingested 700 mg of Molly, then another 500 around 6 hours later and 200 mg an hour or so after. I was having alot of fun at the time /w an insignificant other in my Jacuzzi ( we didn't get too crazy, just making out for a very long time ) which i was constantly making either cool or hot depending on how i felt every 30 min or so. An erection was near impossible, but I guess still fun at the time. After around 14 hours i decided It was a failed experiment and decided to go to sleep, which later found out was no easy task, so i spent the next 24 hours up playing video games, during this time i just felt awake and i think i was up for a combined total of around 70 hours, mentally i was fairly sound, until i was in bed, then i started having what i later learned to be brain zaps, felt like i was going unconscious, but not quite, very scary.. especially having a brother who is epileptic, but eventually i went to sleep. The next day i still had them, but it wasn't as bad and within 36 hours the zaps went away.
<2 weeks ago >
For the Next 3-4 days my Brain was extremely foggy and still is to this day but much better than it was intially, 0 ability to focus ( but that later improved ), during this time i had an icepack and fan blowing on me and packed at all hours except when i was asleep, eating salmon everyday, v8 and also taking htp-5 capsules 2 a day to help restore serotonin which after 3 days i stopped. After about 4 days of this I pussied out and went to the emergency room cause of anxiety out of what i had done and to get any kinda of prescription to help the comedown. They gave me lorazepam which i consumed for the next 5 days every 6 hours. After that, I decided to stop using the drug as to better ascertain my ability to focus. After this i decided to tell my family and spend sometime in their company to relieve the anxiety i was feeling that these side effects would never go away. After 4 days with them, i decided to go back home.
<Present>
I had extensive blood work done, all normal. Cat scan Normal, Still feeling the effects, but everyday there is slight improvement but i feel it's plateau'd. My Focus and Concentration are back to around 70% of what it used to be, I Enjoy and get excited and happy at the same things and to the same levels as i did before, but everyday for the past 25 days my temperature has been elevated from around 1 to 1.5 degrees above normal, which is kinda of driving me crazy as i need a fan blowing on me most of the day, i can no longer enjoy video games or work. The heat only subsides for 1 hour at the start of the day and while i'm in bed with my eyes shut, after about an hour of this and fans and icepacks cooling me, i am able to sustain a normal temperature, but within 5 minutes of opening my eyes again, my temperature goes back up. it's always rite around 99.6 degrees or so and i feel it's constant, it hasn't gone down much since the very beginning. Once a week my hearing becomes acute for several hours, no buzzing or ringing, just very sensitive.
I excersized for the first time in a long time 1 week ago, that day i felt a negative appetite had to go to emergency for low potassium and puffing up, which was later diagnosed as anxiety and the doctor said i may have burned through some of the mdma trapped in fatty tissue, that same night i would close my eyes and my imagination was augmented with a bit of color. Contrary to this I feel like my emotions have returned, i'm the same as i am before, no depression or anxiety most of the time, but when i get brain fog for several hours then it comes back, like it is right now. I was prescribed Zyprexa, It did give me some Appetite, which i have not had for these past 3 weeks at all, even thou i'm eating healthy. But After one dose, i decided that my anxiety and ability to sleep was not so bad to warrant it, so i stopped.
I've read that MDMA constricts your blood vessels in the brain and that mdma could also remain in the brain for sometime. I think my temperature is due to the constricting blood vessels and my brain repairing itself to a certain degree. I also think the Brain Fogginess might have something to do with that, but i do not know and the doctors and psychiatrists i've spoken to seem to just shrug off any questions with very little explanation. Maybe i will have better luck being referred to a neurologist? Will a Pet Scan and monitoring of my blood vessels help me, has anyone experienced this sort of approach and can give advice as to what i can expect? ( still trying to find an experienced neurologist, any that are known in the los angeles area to be experienced in mdma overdoses*, i would very much appreciate it if anyone could drop me their contact info )
My question is... based on what i've said. When will my temperature return to normal? is it possible that it is malignant? has anybody experienced this increase in temperature that has lasted for 3 weeks consistently everyday? and when will this Brain Fogginess subside, will it go away when my temperature goes away or will it remain afterwards, i don't know? These past 3 weeks i've done no drugs, but i feel like my progress has reached a plateau, my emotions and happiness are back but my anxiety is constantly at odds with my progress. I appreciate any and all criticism or advice, I just want to be normal again and i know there are many people in much worse situations than myself which i feel so sorry for and have scared me into never doing this drug again and for that i give my condolences and apologies to any one who is offended by anything i've said, i've been reading everyday for the past few weeks and this is my first post. So take it easy on me.