I love some of the replies on the first page... It is funny that we can accept alcohol being used throughout our whole adult life, but when it comes to opiates it's like this overwhelming feeling that 'oh, i have to stop, i have to stop, i have to never take it again', 'oh no, i relapsed, i must be worthless, i am weak, i am terrible... etc.
If you had those thoughts about alcohol from when you very first tried it, you would probably drive yourself towards it more and more because of this obsessive type of thinking that is surrounding your thoughts of alcohol and the eventual pedestal you will place it on. Imagine that:
ME AS A KID: 'i tried some alcohol last week and it was rad, but now i must stop, i must stop, i must stop, i must stop'... next week after that you have some more alcohol and then all you can think about is 'wow, alcohol has this terrifying pull over me, it is so powerful... when in reality it was just something fun to do, so you did it again.
And i love the reverse Placebo effect that you get with drugs, thanks to all the well meaning, but ultimately clueless folk who think a drug addiction is something that must be stopped at all costs, even if it isn't doing you that much damage... as soon as people have gotten a good addiction going the whole mindset of everyone around them almost invariably turns towards how much their life is fucked up and they need to RECOVER. Well hello! if you obsess over how bad your life is, then you are getting this reverse placebo bullshit that actually does make your life crap. You start believing you have let your family down, you have let yourself down and so on. As well meaning as the people around you are, turing you into this thing that is broken and needs help is actually the sort of thing that will encourage and reenforce addictions. You started the addiction because you liked how you think on Heroin, but after your whole family found out and lost faith in you, you start needing heroin more seriously because you have reached a point in life that is isolated and very hard to exist in.
BE PROUD MY JUNKIE FRIENDS. We are on the new frontier! If you have to use for the rest of your life then so be it, it isn't actually all that hard anymore, and getting better all the time.
Just feel good about yourself ok, and understand your life is something only you (and possibly other heroin users) can fully understand
Look at Keith Richards, or any other rock star that has used quite a bit and still had a rad life. Then look at the typical doctor often telling you how badly you fucked up for using heroin, looking down on you because you like to use a drug.
just do your best and look at your drug use as part of your life. If you have to use for the rest of your life, so what...
You can be happy and be proud of your choices to see what you can do with your brain, or you can accept what the population of anti-drug types tell you about being worthless and about needing to recover and never touch a drug again, only to feel absolutely worthless because you have to accept you have done bad in life before any of these people can give you help...
I actually had to make up a sob story about how much my life and relationships were being affected by my drug use, just so i could get into a program that can prescribe me suboxone. I haven't had that much trouble from using opiate, but i needed some suboxone obviously as one does from time to time, but the programs here in Australia have only one mode in which they operate on... you have to be down and out before they prescribe you suboxone. What a way to operate - as long as you are still remaining productive in life, you cannot have a prescription for suboxone. Come and see us when your life is fucked up and we will happily help you to pick up the pieces with some suboxone.
If suboxone was easier to get, it can actually be used as a tool to stop people getting 'down and out'. Rather than some guy stealing stuff on a Sunday night because he ran out of opiates, if he had a prescription for suboxone he could just pop one, get a good night sleep and then stroll into work the next day with a smile on his face.
Be happy my friends, and know that we are the lucky ones. There may be pain, but the pain makes us strong. There may be a lack of sex drive, but at least we don't have four unwanted kids from ugly ladies who only got our seed because we were pissed as cunts and horny as fuck.
If more dudes were able to shrug of a dirty shag with a sub par ladie, the world would have less shit babies born out of relationships that had no attraction whatsoever.
If more people only got into relationships because they actually click with someone, rather than just because they wanted sex for a couple of months, think how much stronger each relationship will be.
If only more people had heroin.