James Peach
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- Nov 19, 2022
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hey guys, been lurking 15+ years made a new account and wanted to add to this post. Im 6 weeks into Methadone Maintenance. I got arrested in July search warrant at my apartment kicked in the door. I live in LA, got arrested for dealing fent and was addicted massively to smoking 2-3 grams a day and 8-20+ mgs alprazolam or clonazepam depending what i can get my hands on. My charges were somehow dropped after 3-4 days in jail. They gave me 5 mgs valium 2 times a day and clonidine 0.1 mgs, when i was released from jail the WD were just starting. Heroin was bad, but boy fent is another level. Plus benzo wd, i didnt eat or sleep for 28 days. I ended up going to the ER a few days in a row because the poly WD was so bad we couldnt handle it alone anymore. I was sent to a methadone clinic on day 30 fent withdrawals. They told me for methadone its a complicated process that requires the clinic doctor to be there which would mean waiting 3-4 more days and at that point the ER wouldnt even take me anymore i would leave and turn around come back in cause they just wouldnt prescribe benzos or anything.
anyways, i took the sub route 30 days into fent withdrwals and benzo wds because i seriously needed to eat and sleep. Even after 30 days, the subs made me feel almost worse. The clinic bumped me up to max 24 mgs a day and i still wasnt feeling better. I was lacking sleep and food for so long i started actually losing my mind and i stopped understanding reality to a degree. I was in a constant withdrawal state for like 50 days on 24 mgs, i successfully quit benzos which is a big achievement.
So after i regained my mind and some sleep, although during the subs i would chip and smoke fent again and it spit my subutex out, save them, wait 4 days after fent and hop back on 24 mgs, i even tried max ceiling effect 32 mgs. Even after no fent for 45 days, using fent for 3 days and then waiting 4 days to hop back on bupe and still have WD. Eventually set an appointment when reality started coming back. I was so sick for so long i was hallucinating that narcoticts detectives were running up my staircase again.
My clinic is an interesting one because they will try bupe first before methadone even though theyre a methadone clinic? i dont know how that works. I always gave it a bad rep (methadone) because of a post like this about being chained to the clinic. My alternative is street fent. Im okay with having to take methadone as long as i need. Its been 4 months+ since i was arrested and i still feel like im barely able to get up and go to the store and im on 105 mgs a day methadone.
Im curious about other peoples experience with their clinics and how high can your dose get? Whats the highest dose other people have gotten on? why do i feel like shit cold and clammy even at 105 mgs 8-12 hours after my dose?
I want to use bluelight and the forums as a place to keep myself in check thus creating this thread. Feel free to budge in any topic on your mind, share your experiences and countries. Ive always had great respect for this website. If used correctly it can be a tool like NA meetings. At least for me. I dont seem to do well in meetings but here i feel like myself
anyways, i took the sub route 30 days into fent withdrwals and benzo wds because i seriously needed to eat and sleep. Even after 30 days, the subs made me feel almost worse. The clinic bumped me up to max 24 mgs a day and i still wasnt feeling better. I was lacking sleep and food for so long i started actually losing my mind and i stopped understanding reality to a degree. I was in a constant withdrawal state for like 50 days on 24 mgs, i successfully quit benzos which is a big achievement.
So after i regained my mind and some sleep, although during the subs i would chip and smoke fent again and it spit my subutex out, save them, wait 4 days after fent and hop back on 24 mgs, i even tried max ceiling effect 32 mgs. Even after no fent for 45 days, using fent for 3 days and then waiting 4 days to hop back on bupe and still have WD. Eventually set an appointment when reality started coming back. I was so sick for so long i was hallucinating that narcoticts detectives were running up my staircase again.
My clinic is an interesting one because they will try bupe first before methadone even though theyre a methadone clinic? i dont know how that works. I always gave it a bad rep (methadone) because of a post like this about being chained to the clinic. My alternative is street fent. Im okay with having to take methadone as long as i need. Its been 4 months+ since i was arrested and i still feel like im barely able to get up and go to the store and im on 105 mgs a day methadone.
Im curious about other peoples experience with their clinics and how high can your dose get? Whats the highest dose other people have gotten on? why do i feel like shit cold and clammy even at 105 mgs 8-12 hours after my dose?
I want to use bluelight and the forums as a place to keep myself in check thus creating this thread. Feel free to budge in any topic on your mind, share your experiences and countries. Ive always had great respect for this website. If used correctly it can be a tool like NA meetings. At least for me. I dont seem to do well in meetings but here i feel like myself