FFS G about getting back on fent to do a taper after 10 days. I know you're more informed than me in this area, but surely that is just going to cause more overall sufferring in the long run. Maybe at least give it a bit longer to see if your lingering symptoms really are going to be protracted or if they're going to clear up sooner than you'd expect. Of course, you (and your doc) know what's the best thing to do here, but you said yourself you hate doing long tapers, and after the methadone withdrawals last year it seems like you are simply spending far too much of your time in withdrawals. You are obviously a tough guy and much more capable of handling your situation than many others would be, but I just can't imagine spending so much time withdrawing from opioids as being conductive to a positive state of mind. That said, if this will lead to better wellbeing in the future for yourself, I guess you should go for it.
As for fentanyl being the 'holy grain' of opioids.... naw. I have only done 3 of the fent analogues, not "cool original" but I think I have a fair idea of what they're about. I've also never used time release patches... mostly large doses vaped on foil for me. Because of the potency, they can (butyr in particular) give a real nice "rush" onset effect, as you can take your whole dose in one lungfull. Thus, I guess it is probably as close to IV opioids as I'll get without crossing that line (I don't plan to btw...). In terms of analgesia, when dosed like this is pretty intense. It also gives a strong "opioid-like" sensation, but what it provides quantatively it lacks qualitatively.... Just doesn't have that groovy feel good antidepressant effect of heroin. Nevertheless, if I had both sitting in front of me and I had to choose, it wouldn't necessarily be an obvious choice. If I'm craving intensity, the fent (analogue) takes the cake. Not sure how much all this translates to fent patches.
Just uner one week since I received my gear in the mail, I'm now polishing it off. I probably don't need anymore tonight but kind of want to go out with style. Plus its the referendum so, you know... Managed to achieve a lot of things this last week I wouldn't have otherwise if I'd been in withdrawal. Back to the DHC tomorrow, then quite possibly back to the heroin again soon after as I only have about 16 30mg pills. Everyting is all resting on something that will happen Monday now, if things go the way I hope they do then I will have to remain fnctional for quite a few weeks to come tbh. If things don't go the way I want on Monday, then I guess I can just quick taper and detox with the DHC and be done with it. IF I can convince myself to get clean..... not gonna lie, opiates have really got their hook in me at present :S
