I'm still trying to assimilate whatever the hell happened about 3 days ago.
First of all, I want to say that in no way do I believe all that mumbo jumbo "entity contact", "psychic episodes", "spirits", etc., associated with psychedelics. Tho, as the title suggests, I did so during said episode(s).
I must say that I consider myself an experienced psychonaut, tripping basically every 15 days/week or so, since December 2013; psychedelics have been extremely useful for me, as they mainly helped me to return to making art again, as I had buried said side of me since 2012-ish, so yeah, sounds corny, but on my second trip I was basically "forced" to get out of my hiatus and draw again.
Anyways, back to topic: I had recently been getting a kick of dropping cannabis into my psychedelic trips. And I must say I enjoy this new level of intensity and surrealness; in the past I've done really high doses of psychedelics (5 strong tabs at the same time), though never reached a mental state equivalent to what the combination of thc and 5-ht2a-agonism brings.
I must say that I quite like it much, but I also fear it at the same time.
Last saturday was my third cannabis + lsd combination attempt, and I must confess that It was very hard, It felt as I've had been caught off guard, that I was too arrogant about my biomedical knowledge (yeah, I'm a medic, currently on my internship), foolishly thinking that I was invulnerable to bad situations like the one i've just experienced.
So as I was reading about the common themes that ruled bad trips, I came to the conclusion that what I had experienced is what people consider "entity contact": On last weekend I had dropped two tabs of unknown dosage, and I was about 8 hours into de trip, it was being a very pleasant experience so far, with lots of visuals, and a very nice headspace of introspection, however, I decided to kick it up a bit, so I thought that probably adding a bit of weed wasn't going to do any harm, I mean, I had done it in the past, twice (although one occasion turned to be borderline psychotic, in retrospective). So there I was, loading the pipe, and as soon as I finished firing that innocent bowl filled with what I reckon it was some pretty normal/average cannabis, everything became very intensively visual, very intensively mental, as well. I started doubting reality, yadda yadd, a bad trip, etc. What shocked me the most was the fact that I kinda heard this weird noises, that somehow sounded like a conglomeration of whirring sounds, echoed screams, and incongruently otherworldly language gibberish. This was juxtaposed with incredible CEVs and OEVs of unimaginable complexity. So at that time my inmediate conclusion was that somehow some group of beings from another plane of existence were "hacking" into my psyche, that the THC + LSD combination made my mind link with them without permission or something.
Sound ridiculous now, yes, but at the time I didn't think so. It was extremely intense, and I almost screamed in my room (I still live with my family, had I screamed, shit would have hit the fan).
I must say, however, that after the most intense part of it had passed, I was left with a brief moment of perfect intensity and mind alteration, I was no longer haunted by the paranoia that had developed earlier, and was now in a state of mind elation and somehow managed to open the gate to open eyed synesthesia, as I was listening to music I would stare at the quilt my face was laying on, and the fractals that arose from it dance to rhythm of what I was listening (cliché Tool music, lol), it was one of the most beautiful moments in my life, something I hoped so much to achieve in the past but was never successful with LSD alone.
So now I'm stuck between being scared off trying said combination again in fear of having a psychotic break, and super anxiously curious about going for it again because of the extremely fun synesthesia I experienced as well.
What are your thoughts on all this?
Are there any tricks to avoid being overtaking by said situations again?
Some sort of failsafe mechanism to be secure from the intense madness that can be brought upon?
First of all, I want to say that in no way do I believe all that mumbo jumbo "entity contact", "psychic episodes", "spirits", etc., associated with psychedelics. Tho, as the title suggests, I did so during said episode(s).
I must say that I consider myself an experienced psychonaut, tripping basically every 15 days/week or so, since December 2013; psychedelics have been extremely useful for me, as they mainly helped me to return to making art again, as I had buried said side of me since 2012-ish, so yeah, sounds corny, but on my second trip I was basically "forced" to get out of my hiatus and draw again.
Anyways, back to topic: I had recently been getting a kick of dropping cannabis into my psychedelic trips. And I must say I enjoy this new level of intensity and surrealness; in the past I've done really high doses of psychedelics (5 strong tabs at the same time), though never reached a mental state equivalent to what the combination of thc and 5-ht2a-agonism brings.
I must say that I quite like it much, but I also fear it at the same time.
Last saturday was my third cannabis + lsd combination attempt, and I must confess that It was very hard, It felt as I've had been caught off guard, that I was too arrogant about my biomedical knowledge (yeah, I'm a medic, currently on my internship), foolishly thinking that I was invulnerable to bad situations like the one i've just experienced.
So as I was reading about the common themes that ruled bad trips, I came to the conclusion that what I had experienced is what people consider "entity contact": On last weekend I had dropped two tabs of unknown dosage, and I was about 8 hours into de trip, it was being a very pleasant experience so far, with lots of visuals, and a very nice headspace of introspection, however, I decided to kick it up a bit, so I thought that probably adding a bit of weed wasn't going to do any harm, I mean, I had done it in the past, twice (although one occasion turned to be borderline psychotic, in retrospective). So there I was, loading the pipe, and as soon as I finished firing that innocent bowl filled with what I reckon it was some pretty normal/average cannabis, everything became very intensively visual, very intensively mental, as well. I started doubting reality, yadda yadd, a bad trip, etc. What shocked me the most was the fact that I kinda heard this weird noises, that somehow sounded like a conglomeration of whirring sounds, echoed screams, and incongruently otherworldly language gibberish. This was juxtaposed with incredible CEVs and OEVs of unimaginable complexity. So at that time my inmediate conclusion was that somehow some group of beings from another plane of existence were "hacking" into my psyche, that the THC + LSD combination made my mind link with them without permission or something.
Sound ridiculous now, yes, but at the time I didn't think so. It was extremely intense, and I almost screamed in my room (I still live with my family, had I screamed, shit would have hit the fan).
I must say, however, that after the most intense part of it had passed, I was left with a brief moment of perfect intensity and mind alteration, I was no longer haunted by the paranoia that had developed earlier, and was now in a state of mind elation and somehow managed to open the gate to open eyed synesthesia, as I was listening to music I would stare at the quilt my face was laying on, and the fractals that arose from it dance to rhythm of what I was listening (cliché Tool music, lol), it was one of the most beautiful moments in my life, something I hoped so much to achieve in the past but was never successful with LSD alone.
So now I'm stuck between being scared off trying said combination again in fear of having a psychotic break, and super anxiously curious about going for it again because of the extremely fun synesthesia I experienced as well.
What are your thoughts on all this?
Are there any tricks to avoid being overtaking by said situations again?
Some sort of failsafe mechanism to be secure from the intense madness that can be brought upon?