last week i decided to use a stimulant before work. I thought it would help my performance. From the afternoon to around 7pm everthing was good, was productive, happy, etc. Then i started feeling an imminent fear where i thought people were noticing i was jittery. i started to get sweaty and nervous and scared. there was a supervisor i joked with, but after the joke i noticed he got out of his seat quickly and walked down the hallway. i had thought that he figured me out and went to my supervisor and told her. I started panicing inside and was terrified. i thought he secretly went in my lockor and found the stuff. I then started hearing voices from my coworkers saying "too bad he was such a good employee, sad it will be his last day" and "why do they let him stay to work why dont they just kick him out. Evertime a coworker looked at me i thought it was a look of discust because "they knew what i was doing". My supervisors door was closed, so i started to think she was conspiring with the other sup who i thought thought i was high. i started to think they were not telling me anything because they wanted to entrap me with the cops. this was it i thought , i am going to jail. i threw away the stuff in the trash can. then i started thinking the sup wpuld go through the security cameras tonfind out where i threw it. i was terrified
end of the night and end of work ,i went to my car. i thought for sure the cops were there to pounce. They didnt. So instarted thinking they called my landlord to initiate a police takedown when i came down. i was sure the sup found out through the security camera where i threw away the stuff. I sat inside my home terrified they were gonna shoot through the door. i stayed up all night. Any car noise outside i thought was another police car driving up in the driveway. Upstairs i thought an agent was secretly talking to my landlord to coax me outside. i thought i heard them outside nut no one was there when i checked.i thought evertime i checked they went into a secret hiding place. i kept hearing my landlord say "ok, u can come back now" to the cops outside. hours went by me being terrified. then i started watching the cara amd kept moticing a white and grey suv riding back and forth. I thought they were unmarked policice trying to stalk me and wait till i left. this went on for hours being terrified of the whitensuvs.
turns out no one thought i was jittery or high at work and what i thought the comworkers were saying wasnt true at all. however it felt all so real to me. does anyone have similar stories? the sup who i thought walked away too fast was actually going to lunch.nand the worker who said "too bad he was such a good worker" was anoutnsomeone else who transfered.
end of the night and end of work ,i went to my car. i thought for sure the cops were there to pounce. They didnt. So instarted thinking they called my landlord to initiate a police takedown when i came down. i was sure the sup found out through the security camera where i threw away the stuff. I sat inside my home terrified they were gonna shoot through the door. i stayed up all night. Any car noise outside i thought was another police car driving up in the driveway. Upstairs i thought an agent was secretly talking to my landlord to coax me outside. i thought i heard them outside nut no one was there when i checked.i thought evertime i checked they went into a secret hiding place. i kept hearing my landlord say "ok, u can come back now" to the cops outside. hours went by me being terrified. then i started watching the cara amd kept moticing a white and grey suv riding back and forth. I thought they were unmarked policice trying to stalk me and wait till i left. this went on for hours being terrified of the whitensuvs.
turns out no one thought i was jittery or high at work and what i thought the comworkers were saying wasnt true at all. however it felt all so real to me. does anyone have similar stories? the sup who i thought walked away too fast was actually going to lunch.nand the worker who said "too bad he was such a good worker" was anoutnsomeone else who transfered.