Korana
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Nov 13, 2019
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- 35
I introduced myself in the New Member section.
Basically I have chronic pain. I was refused Opiate based treatment because it's not in the guidelines of prescribing in the UK to treat my condition anymore. I was tried on many many drugs. My doctor settled on a relatively low dose of Gabapentin referred me to a physio team and that was that. I've heard the dreaded words of, 'There's nothing else I can do for you'
I was desperate. I work long shifts in Health and Social care and I love it. I wanted to be able to do an amazing job. It's physically demanding and for a chronic pain sufferer that's a problem. My sector isn't forgiving for illness and sick leave.
I turned to online doctors for help. Soon I was ordering 800 cocodamol a month, buying nurofen plus and still experiencing pain.
I thought if I took enough it would numb me enough to feel 'normal' like everyone else. Really it just created a severe dependence. So much so I couldn't go 8 hours without taking any. I'd experience severe pain, severe aggravation and feel immesenly emotional and panicked. Especially because i'd run out waiting for packages and withdrawal would set in severely after 24hours.
It's been 5 years since I made the decision to self medicate and I regret it immensely. It's severely impacted my financials, my relationships and my health. I was beginning to feel so ill all the time.I knew I was starting to risk my life with my doses.
A current breast cancer scare has awakened me to my utter stupidity I find out on Friday
So right now I'm in detox from codeine. It's day 4 and it still sucks. I have so much pain, fatigue and moodiness. I'm using an array of OTC medicines to help with the stomach issues, water eyes, runny nose etc. Got a 3 day script fo Diazepam to help with the muscle spasms. And thank god, even with Diazepam they were insane.
I'm also using white Kratom to give me some energy (I'll be ceasing use within 2 weeks hopefully - moderate amounts. No desire to abuse) And I'm smoking weed at night to help me sleep. And when I sleep for 4 hours and wake up, I smoke again to get more sleep.
I am beyond relieved the night sweats have ended early somehow. I hated waking up soaking and freezing but somehow overheating with the stench of detox sweats all over me. It was disgusting. Even napping would induce them. My body temperature is doing okay, predisposed to getting a little cold but I'm so much more comfortable without sweating.
I guess I feel lonely. I've hidden this from the world for so long. Only my partner and a trusted friend know this is happening. I'm off work atm with a broken foot (I know, my timing for detox is impeccable) so I'm bundled at home trying to get through.
Yesterday I started to feel my emotions again and it was painful and lovely. I cried at music, did some writing and just coped.
I guess what I'm wondering is... Yes in a way I've bee an addict, but I never want a tablet again. I'm not remotely tempted. I do want withdrawal to end more than anything but I don't want to to that through codeine ever again. Has anyone exp[erienced it this way? ZERO cravings?
And is there any other supplements or anything I can use apart from:
immodium, 5Htp, L-Tyrosine, Centrum advance multivitamins, kratom, weed, pernation forte gel, tiger balm and turmeric capsules? Also taking a little ibuprofen and paracetamol here and there?
Is there a withdrawal recipe? Or am I on it and just need to deal?
Everyone talks about the prlonged fatigue and depression - My mood is okay. But is there a timeline for when fatigue lifts? Even White Kratom isn't combatting it too well.
Basically I have chronic pain. I was refused Opiate based treatment because it's not in the guidelines of prescribing in the UK to treat my condition anymore. I was tried on many many drugs. My doctor settled on a relatively low dose of Gabapentin referred me to a physio team and that was that. I've heard the dreaded words of, 'There's nothing else I can do for you'
I was desperate. I work long shifts in Health and Social care and I love it. I wanted to be able to do an amazing job. It's physically demanding and for a chronic pain sufferer that's a problem. My sector isn't forgiving for illness and sick leave.
I turned to online doctors for help. Soon I was ordering 800 cocodamol a month, buying nurofen plus and still experiencing pain.
I thought if I took enough it would numb me enough to feel 'normal' like everyone else. Really it just created a severe dependence. So much so I couldn't go 8 hours without taking any. I'd experience severe pain, severe aggravation and feel immesenly emotional and panicked. Especially because i'd run out waiting for packages and withdrawal would set in severely after 24hours.
It's been 5 years since I made the decision to self medicate and I regret it immensely. It's severely impacted my financials, my relationships and my health. I was beginning to feel so ill all the time.I knew I was starting to risk my life with my doses.
A current breast cancer scare has awakened me to my utter stupidity I find out on Friday
So right now I'm in detox from codeine. It's day 4 and it still sucks. I have so much pain, fatigue and moodiness. I'm using an array of OTC medicines to help with the stomach issues, water eyes, runny nose etc. Got a 3 day script fo Diazepam to help with the muscle spasms. And thank god, even with Diazepam they were insane.
I'm also using white Kratom to give me some energy (I'll be ceasing use within 2 weeks hopefully - moderate amounts. No desire to abuse) And I'm smoking weed at night to help me sleep. And when I sleep for 4 hours and wake up, I smoke again to get more sleep.
I am beyond relieved the night sweats have ended early somehow. I hated waking up soaking and freezing but somehow overheating with the stench of detox sweats all over me. It was disgusting. Even napping would induce them. My body temperature is doing okay, predisposed to getting a little cold but I'm so much more comfortable without sweating.
I guess I feel lonely. I've hidden this from the world for so long. Only my partner and a trusted friend know this is happening. I'm off work atm with a broken foot (I know, my timing for detox is impeccable) so I'm bundled at home trying to get through.
Yesterday I started to feel my emotions again and it was painful and lovely. I cried at music, did some writing and just coped.
I guess what I'm wondering is... Yes in a way I've bee an addict, but I never want a tablet again. I'm not remotely tempted. I do want withdrawal to end more than anything but I don't want to to that through codeine ever again. Has anyone exp[erienced it this way? ZERO cravings?
And is there any other supplements or anything I can use apart from:
immodium, 5Htp, L-Tyrosine, Centrum advance multivitamins, kratom, weed, pernation forte gel, tiger balm and turmeric capsules? Also taking a little ibuprofen and paracetamol here and there?
Is there a withdrawal recipe? Or am I on it and just need to deal?
Everyone talks about the prlonged fatigue and depression - My mood is okay. But is there a timeline for when fatigue lifts? Even White Kratom isn't combatting it too well.