Blu-Shad0w
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Oct 22, 2014
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- 58
3mmc---- but to the point had almost a break down due to the heavy use... sex was great but was fucking up everything else in our life
I remembered now that people would say I love you whenever they were high.
In one minute they are your best friend, hours later they hate you.
That must be awful on the next day.
"where am I", "how could I have done that"? etc, etc.
Got way too fucked up on heroin, xanax, and vodka.... so fucked up that I couldn't save my friend. I also didn't realize the extent of the situation because of the drugs and going into a panic attack at the same time. He died that night. I still have ptsd from the whole situation. I even overdosed that night and somehow made a how high are you post in the mists of it... before I passed out on the bathroom floor.
I am sorry to hear that. Under those circumstances, it's not your fault. It could have happened to you.