I'm officially in rehab today thanks to my irresponsible use of Clonitrazolam. I'm glad, I've been abusing alcohohol. Coke, other things for years. Its not these pills fault I'm there. Its that I can't stop doing any addictive drug if I have a supply. This stuff would be an ideal Benzo for a responsible user, but its so strong that someone like me it's a train wreck. Strangely, I could always handle klonopin. Like function, go work, and nobody noticed I was on it. Xanax too to an extent. On Clonazolam I literally fucked up everything I touched for the whole time I used it. It still has me thinking about it though , at the sweet spot of about 8mg I have never felt better from any drug. I used about 45 mg the 1st time responsibly, but when it ran out I had some pretty hefty withdrawals coming on. I just acted sick, kept going to work and promised myself I would flush the next 90 tabs that were in the mail. Soon as they showed up I dumped them out. I was like, if I eat .35 this anxiety will go away . I had work in three hours. I musta had 5 more at least . At that job I was standing there eating raw pizza dough in the middle of the busy rush. This was job 2 gone, I had lost job 1 munching Etizolam at work previously. Job 3 was a dishwasher only gig, this time I had eaten 50mg Etizolam powder , and two 8mg Flubromazepam caps before my shift. I got bored about 4 hours in and just went home. Job 4 I had moved to my new town with my girl, everything going great I decided to order 150mg Clonazolam pg solution to celebrate. I went to work, slurring, couldn't remember my bosses name. Broke all kinds of furniture falling over it, don't remember, and yes tried to sharpen a set of crazy sharp professional chef knives after about 75mg of Clonazolam. My girl found me, I was in our original apt. we were moving out of. There were piles of broken furniture, blood, and wires I had somehow ripped out all over the place. I can't justify or sustain this behavior . I tell you guys this story because it's nuts for one, but two, if you have any kind of addictive personality leave this shit waaay alone. I am lucky I'm not in jail, or seriously hurt..All I know is that I would compulsively redose and completely black out. Be careful folks, I'm glad my Benzo ride is over. Ive had other addictions, but none that just powerslammed me into stopping.like this shit. Yes I've done crack, and heroin too. These pills though, are what sent me to rehab and good enough time too I'm a monster with the substances.