Alright, I did it. Told my pain management doc to fuck off, after getting him to write me 120 subs (8mg...) This is a huge step for me, cause I am a chronic pain patient. I do NEED my meds, but I'm tired of being on pain meds, I'd rather be in pain than worry about being in withdrawl whenever I run out, or even when I wake up in the fucking morning. Anyone who knows me would understand that ME getting off the pain meds by CHOICE is something serious. Anyways, I got precipitated withdrawl cause he said, take your fent patch off and take one an hour later. LOL I was taking it buccally and waited 6 hours, but still got VERY sick. I was terrified to take more so I suffered BADLY for 40+ hours. A friend convinces me, I'll be ok it won't get worse. Just take it. So, day one I did my 32 mg suggested script, day 2 did 16mg, day 3 did 12mg, day 4 did 10, day 5 did 8, today is day 6 and did only 4 mg. I'm about to do another 2 cause today I'm feeling it like hell. So, I guess day 6 do 6 mg. I have a decent amount of them, and CAN get another script next month but I won't be able to afford to fill it. So I wanna just use these 120 (somehow I still have 121 of them out of a script for 120, HAHA take that pharma) to get completely off. Hell, if I can use even a fraction of that, I will. I don't want to draw it out. I just want my life back. (albeit a pain-filled one)
Any suggestions that don't involve me taking this shit for more than another week or two? Today is the first day the taper really bothered me. Maybe I'll take 6 mg tomorrow too then try 4 again on sunday... I can't imagine how I'm gonna get down to any type of dose under 2mg with these big pills that are hard to break evenly. I do have a digital scale, though I'm not great with math.... Anyways I know nothing about subs, so I'd appreciate the advice. I don't even give a shit about getting high at this point like I said I want my life back. That doesn't include NEEDING a substance, its one thing to WANT it but I've NEEDED it for TOO LONG. I'm so done. Thanks
next day edit- i didn't take the extra 2 mg so day 6 WAS 4mg and I'm going for that again today, but I still don't know how to do this right.... So I do still need help please and thank you