Oh man, that is huge!!! Shows that your mind and body is recalibrating and "normalizing". I actually think that when I started to have those moments they tended to occur in the afternoon or the late night. I am proud of you!
I do think it's finally happening. Two months and two weeks into being on methadone (roughly - I got on at the end of May, I think the 25th or something?) and sometimes I felt like it would never happen... I thought my brain was permanently broken. It's not
I'm also realizing that my mindset plays a part. I've realized that much of this time I'm always focused on chemical relief - either waiting til I can dose in the morning and feel better for a few hours, or thinking about when I'm off it and "my brain is finally normal", or saying fuck it and using the time I relapsed on dope or the times I took a vicodin, or even having a drink now and then, or thinking about doing dope even though I know I'm not going to, sometimes I'd let myself fantasize about it. My mindset was always "I don't feel good and I'm not happy and I won't BE happy unless I either take something or wait months and months til my brain is totally normal". It's what I honestly believed at the time, but now I'm seeing that if I continue to think that way, I'm going to be pretty miserable. Life and happiness are what you make of them. So what my methadone is wearing off (as usual for around this time). That means I can't be happy? No matter what? What kind of attitude is that to have?
So I'm doing my best not to think about when I dose or how long it's been since I dosed, or whether my dose will be wearing off soon, or whether I should have a drink (I try to keep it to twice a week). I'm trying to live my life and behave as if my brain chemistry were normal already and it's up to ME whether I'll be happy today or not, not what level of a chemical is or isn't in my blood
I'm not saying it's easy or in the bag for me or that I've got it all figured out... I depended on drugs for so long that it's hard to completely let go of that, so I still sometimes focus on what I've taken or not taken or wish I was taking, but I'm more aware of it now and just keep reminding myself that I can't base my happiness on that.
I mean really, what chance am I giving myself if I think "3pm, my methadone's going to be a lot worn off soon to the point where I start to feel a little crappy... no way I'm going to be happy for the rest of the day".. ?
Only took me 2 1/2 months to realize that, lol.