I have never had 2 cocks in my asshole or anywhere near me, for that matter, at any point in time. You’re right, there’s definitely people with their fair share of issues in the sex industry. It’s not normal to be able to switch the gears on and off like that. You have to be pretty good at it and began compartmentalization techniques in childhood. However, there are a fair share of “normies” too. I was a Penthouse Pet, a cover girl, a contract star. I looked really good to the public, I’m very well spoken and come off as sweet, but it was a character I invented. I’m just good at playing the game. The person I am/was in my daily life had nothing in common with the girl on screen.
That's interesting with regards to you but one things jumps out and that's decompartmentalisation, which is a trait/symptom of people who have been abused in childhood (Dissociative Identity Disorder in the DSM, formerly known as "multiple personalities/personality disorder"). I'm not for one second saying that you have and you've said that you've always had your shit together and all that and I am sure people can do that without having suffered any kind of trauma. But there obviously are people who have been abused and who have spoken about it openly and it seems to be played down by the industry
Recently watched some bits of an interview with a porn performer and she was talking at one point about doing double anal (I was skipping through it cos she was pretty dumb). She's sexy, natural big ass and tits and a blonde and she actually enjoys anal she says - those are reasons why I've enjoyed watching her here and there. She reminds me of my SO so if I'm not getting any once in a while I'll bang one out to her. Anyway she said the double anal scene was just for show and that it wasn't really pleasurable. Her life seemed pretty normal, her upbringing anyway, didn't lose her virginity til she was 18 or something but said she was always kinky. Anyway that's just what she said and she was pretty dumb so there wasn't much else to do it. I'm mentioning it because some who do the super hardcore stuff now are well-adjusted, if we take that performer on her word anyway.
On the other hand, there are women who get into the really exploitative, degrading shit like the facial abuse stuff that is unwatchable. For those who don't know, the purpose is to break "wannabes" and most of them probably don't come back but I think quite a few notable performers have worked with them and some have actually spoken out about them. Then there are others who get into it and have spoken about essentially being pushed into doing things they didn't want to do, going further in order to make money - especially if they have habits, or simply doing all the crazy stuff just to make the most of their career, stay relevant and all that but it is difficult to understand why and how so many are able to go further than what they ever thought sex was about to the point of causing themselves serious physical and possibly psychological harm (once the haze of coke, xanax, MDMA, booze and oxys wears off and you're getting less and less bookings due to ageing or whatever, looking back at some of that stuff must be super difficult for some people). Porn has changed/evolved obviously and they always test limits.
I'd be interested in knowing the ratio between porn performers who have and haven't been abused, especially the ones who do the more extreme things on cam. Fuck knows what kind of shit happens off screen.
Look at some of the efukt videos: 'shit pornstars say' and their facial abuse vids (which is where I came across that nasty shit). Efukt is like a reverse aphrodisiac for me even though it is intended as a humour site and definitely can be humorous. But it can give a glimpse into the exploitative side of porn which obviously features a lot of people with a lot of serious problems.
I highly recommend the documentary "Hardcore" from 2011 about a girl from Essex in England who wanted to get into porn to "help her daughter". It was later revealed that she had trauma related to her father as a child and that she wanted to be "noticed". Anyway the director, Stephen Walker, didn't intend for the film to be dark but the woman slowly got into situations which went against her initial "no" list. Remember Max Hardcore? in one highly controversial scene, she is basically raped by that nasty fucking scumbag after meeting him, he just rams it in her when checking her out before they've even shaken hands pretty much. She had just been introduced by her agent who is a male English performer and is a scumbag too, I know the type as I can read the signs having spent so many years in England. There is a lot more in the film but that one scene stands out and the film is still shown sometimes today as part of feminist anti-porn discourse, as well as probably non-feminist discourse I suppose. In the end, the woman quit but she was doing all kinds of things she didn't wanna do, all dazed up after initially going in starry eyed. I bet there are loads of people like that.
Anyway to shorten it, there are obviously a lot of performers who have been abused as children in the industry and I also believe that
the industry itself puts a lot of effort into PR, helping people think that it's all OK to have their dirty little secret so nobody has to talk about it, even though there are shit loads of problems which won't be spoken about in polite society.
Another question for
@SoCalShordie - what do you think of the massive rise in transgender porn and its popularity? Also transgenderism itself? Was it prevalent when you were working and would you have worked with a transman or transwoman? Do you think its gay?
