I can remember several years back having sex all the time on MDMA.
Although eventually things got trashy and I would just hook up with raver sluts and other trash in my car or at the hotel after massives, it started out special.
I can remember the 5 or 6th time I had ever rolled. We had just aquired some fire pills. They were Green and Orange Ferarris from 2007. These pills were incredible and every 2 months or so my friends and I would all get together and have a big roll party.
As always, it started out as a social situation with the closest friends. We would prep the night with blacklights and posters, high intensity glow sticks, Tiesto and Armin mixes, and lots of soft things. This was religion for us, as Im sure it is for many of you in different ways.
When the music started and the pills kicked in, I would feel my heartrate begin to rise in PURE anticipation and excitement. By the time I asked myself what I should do next, my whole body felt like it was made of celestial light. I could have been in the middle of nowhere...a broken down car...a bus stop. It didnt matter. When those pills made me peak, I was on cloud 9. I dont think Ill ever roll like that again.
Lets call my friend "Crystal". She was a wild soul. A fire no one in our group could contain. For some reason, she took a liking to me. Maybe it was my taste in music which was pretty radical at the time..maybe it was because I DJ'd... maybe it was because we shared the same zodiac...
Who knows?
All I did know, was that I liked her as a friend. An athletic girl who hadnt played a sport in her life. Crystal was the type of girl you could easily see takin home to your mother. She had short black hair she would part to one side and bright blue eyes. Her figure was perfect...and she always wore super trendy outfits that reminded me of what I had imagined Hollywood to be like. Some girls like her was always the center of attention and often leader of the party. As with all fire though, the brighter and more beautiful it burns, the hotter it gets.
On one particular occasion, 2 of my other friends ended up leaving early. (1:30am). I packed up a bong as I sat on the couch. Crystal turned to me:
"Are you cool if I stay for a bit? I dont want to have to sneak into my parents house this late.."
Of course she was welcome to stay. While we were all past our peak, everyone was still peaking at this time. My friends took off for the night and I said goodbye to them.
Crystal came and sat over by me. She started asking about the candy's I had on my arm and where I had got them all. As she grabbed my wrist and twisted the bracelets she started to caress my arm for a moment. I will never forget how amazing that felt.
I sat up.
"Wanna hit this bong?"
She took it from me and said
"Do you still feel anything? I kind of want to take another..."
I replied that I didnt have anymore and we would have to call "J". She reached into her purse into a small makeup case and pulled out 4 tan volkswagon pills...these were bigger than any pills I had ever seen. They had the sweetest cherry licorice smell Ill never forget. I know neither of those features matter...but that smell with forever stay with me. She looked straight into my eyes, put 2 on her tongue, and pulled me forward. It was the sweetest kiss of my life...so much much tongue and passion. After what seemed like a brief moment she pulled back and smiled. I now had 2 bitter pills in my mouth that I quickly swallowed.
She reached down into her little case and took the other two and took a swig of water. I quickly chased down some water too.
I offered her the bong and she took a hit. I took one too. I needed some classic green.
Like I said before, we were both past our first peak but definitely still rolling. I guess I hadnt been paying attention since I was really starting to flutter as I could tell emotion was building all around me. It was literally felt like a swarm of neon UV monarch butterflies were buzzing all over the room.
Crystal got up and changed the ipod stereo. Thank god for surround sound. I have a handful of Armin van Buuren state of trance mixes that will always feel special for me. She scanned through the mix until she got to one of our favorite tracks :
Parker & Hanson - "Let Me Be (Original Extended)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Is5L4afBI-M
Say what you will about trance...tonight, I could feel the bass pumping through my soul. And my heart rate was rising again already. I turned to Crystal, but before I could say anything I just started smiling and she smiled at me back from across the room. She looked at me and said:
"Do you feel it?" "I think Im rolling again!!"
I had completely forgotten about the bong rip. It brought our first roll back on HARD. Im talking harder than our first peak. She kept saying it was too hot in here. I ran and got the fans and out them on. We danced for about 10 min...occasionally lying down on my shag rug and then getting back up. What happened next was seriously next level. The other rolls we had takin started blowing us up and she started to lose it. She started moaning and breathing heavy..said she couldnt take it and kept closing her eyes. She my head with both hands and forced her tongue down my throat and we started making out...feeling and exploring each others bodies over clothing. She stood up. I sat on the rug looking up as she hovered over me. Next part is graphic, read at your own discretion.
When I woke up, she was gone. We still talked, but things would never be the same. We were meant to go our seperate ways. She went back to school..and I went back to raving. We didnt talk much after she left...I know its because of the sex...but it was an experience meant to be remembered as something that never was...
I dont regret anything. We were not meant to be together...two different people from two different world. We wanted to share one memory.