Haven't posted here in a while but I might as well.
After losing my job, my apartment, my girlfriend, and getting my ass kicked on my last bender, I showed up at my parents house. I told them the truth and they are sending me to a 6 week inpatient rehab center. I feel really bad as it will be costing them 20 grand, but they are willing to do it as it may save my life. I will be attending a place where Robin Williams, Halle Berry, and even Ms. Lohan have all been to.
I sweated through some nasty withdrawls and am currently on 20mg of valium so I won't drink. I'll be admitted next week. It's a good place where AA is not the focus, but mental health, physical health and spirituality are prevelant.
I wish everyone the best of luck and the next time I post here I'll be nearly two months clean and sober.
I'm very thankful my parents were understanding and willing to spend that much money to help me.
edit: my ex sent my a loving message saying she was happy, supportive and knows I can do this. She went to rehab for an eating disorder a few years ago, which she beat, so I'm sure she knows all about addiction.