Zits
Alright, heres the deal. I had clear skin for NINETEEN years, now all of a sudden in year 20 my face is giong batshit. Usually just a couple zits on my face, but a few have come around the lips and when you pop them it looks like you got a fucking cold sore. (which I don't! Went to the ER frantically to have the docter say ... "Yep... thats one bigass zit you have there, go see a dematologist.") Now, to anyone else out there who has delt with zits how do you handle it ? It makes me feel selfconcious around the ones I love, especially my girl and my friends. I could care less about the general population, but it just makes me look gross to have this red spot where my zit was around the lip. They are all sooooo cool and accepting about it, i'm one lucky bastard, but I still can't help but feeling self concious and bad about this! So, any solutions ?
I have an appointment with the dematologist sometime next month, which is the soonest appointment I could get, so i'm looking for alternative methods to control this crap!
I tried hot compresses. Water seems to help, but not enough. I have zit cream or whatever, but that seems to dry it out then I have flaking skin around the effected area which looks even worse ? What the FUCK is going on here ? Why did acne wait 19 fucking years to attack ? I could have delt with this shit a lot better in highschool where there was ofter effected parties but now that i'm involved with a job and a girlfriend it just makes me CRAZY. SOOO selfconcious it makes me not even want to go into work but I FORCE myself to do it. When I do go in my heart races at what feels like 10000BPM and I get physically sick to my stomach. It's come to the point where i'm dimming the lights in my little office space area just to reduce visability and my coworkers are starting to think i'm crazy. Blah. I do my work %110 so they can suck it.
Anyways... Post comments, suggestions, stories, whatever, just please don't mock me. I don't think I can take this all the way until next month...