About to try meth for the first time

[Kellsee]

I am right there with ya girl! Same position. I was shaking when I was typing that post because of the danger I felt from all the anticipation I was picking up on. It was like seeing a bloody fish in the middle of sharks. It has nothing to do with being judgmental at all. I got no reason to judge anyone because I am still on trial myself. Its because I've been in the same spot before. It's about all of the things that I wish someone had said to me before I ever found out what it felt like. Not many ever get any warnings. I seen this as his best chance.

 

[Nurse Ratched]

I am right there with ya girl! Same position. I was shaking when I was typing that post because of the danger I felt from all the anticipation I was picking up on. It was like seeing a bloody fish in the middle of sharks. It has nothing to do with being judgmental at all. I got no reason to judge anyone because I am still on trial myself. Its because I've been in the same spot before. It's about all of the things that I wish someone had said to me before I ever found out what it felt like. Not many ever get any warnings. I seen this as his best chance.

Same here. Not judging at all. And I do hope the OP thinks twice. And I hope your " trial " ends peacefully and without too much angst. We have all been addicted here, myself included. We just need a little help from each other from time to time and the more responses he gets the better. That way he can go into his first experience without the rose colored glasses.

You are a very sweet girl and I hope you have a lovely weekend.

 

[woyzeck]

smoke weed, yes, and I find it can make you super horny but you wreck the meth high in my opinion, and become fiendish.
You'll be more scattered on the come down too.

 

[Kellsee]

We might hate the drug but we love the tweakers. Some of them liven the place up enormously. Personally, I always recommend against anyone of any age starting on meth, but I respect the fact that it is the DOC for a lot of usually functional members who don’t want to feel ashamed of their use.

I totally understand your perspective just as much. I completely believe in harm reduction. I am just as thankful for those like you that are willing to share the correct valid information that'll help others remain safer. It takes all kinds

 

[woyzeck]

Something a mate said that has stuck with me " there is a good reason why stories about meth don't with come happy endings".

 

[Kellsee]

Same here. Not judging at all. And I do hope the OP thinks twice. And I hope your " trial " ends peacefully and without too much angst. We have all been addicted here, myself included. We just need a little help from each other from time to time and the more responses he gets the better. That way he can go into his first experience without the rose colored glasses.

You are a very sweet girl and I hope you have a lovely weekend.

Ty! It was so good to read your post. Imo the most beautiful people had to be completely broken first. Nothing will do that like addiction. But it's also been how Ive found God's purpose for me. I use to see it all negatively. But the older I get the more I see it as a thorn that God put in my side to keep me grounded in His grace. I am rotten to the core lol. His grace is all that's saved me.

I am not on trial literally. I meant in reference to life in general lol. But ty anyways! And you're exactly right about those rose colored glasses! They only blind you with denial.

I hope you have a great weekend thats full of what makes you happy!

 

[Stimmy29]

Since you haven't done it yet I would think long and hard before you use meth. You have time to read all of the meth posts here on BL and if you still want to try it after reading of the misery that meth creates then that's fair. At least you were forewarned.

Sure hope we don't start getting posts from you that mirror all of the anguish and heartache that meth caused a few months from now( after your one time fun time ) . There is no one time and done time with meth. You think there is now because you haven't done it yet.

Your friend that is supplying it to you wants you to be as miserable as they are. I know you think that this will just be a one off but it won't. You are going to like it, A LOT, and you will want more. I know you don't think that is true but it is.

You have time. Don't load that gun. Tell your friend to fuck off that you have changed your mind. Be glad that you have adderall and it still gets you there because it won't do shit once you get a taste of meth.

If you do decide to jump into the depths of hell I hope your comedown isn't too bad. But it will be.

Thinking you will eat and drink on it so you are a healthy meth user is commendable, but you aren't going to eat or drink anything. You'll see.

Read up please. You are still in control here. Don't be like the hundreds of people on here who would sell their soul to be you.

Okay. I am now thinking against using it. My plan was to use it over the long weekend and then take a 6-month break from all stimulants. Are you saying even in 6 months, I won’t feel anything from adderall? Because if so, I don’t want to do that.

 

[Kellsee]

Okay. I am now thinking against using it. My plan was to use it over the long weekend and then take a 6-month break from all stimulants. Are you saying even in 6 months, I won’t feel anything from adderall? Because if so, I don’t want to do that.

Adderall could possibly never be as therapeutic for you again once you have experienced methamphetamines. It's not that extreme for everyone but it is a possibility.


If I could go back I'd nurture all my neurotransmitters and the receive/ reward factor of my brain like a newborn baby....innocence is true bliss

 

[Nurse Ratched]

Okay. I am now thinking against using it. My plan was to use it over the long weekend and then take a 6-month break from all stimulants. Are you saying even in 6 months, I won’t feel anything from adderall? Because if so, I don’t want to do that.

Hey Stimmy. You rock, man. I am so glad that you are having second thoughts. You know how happy that makes me? Very !!!!

No hon, you can use meth for just ONE weekend and go back to the addies no problem. ONE weekend won't do anything to make you not feel them anymore.

But I don't want you to even use ONCE and if you can put your desire to try it on the back burner for awhile and just be cool with your addies and maybe some weed or whatever else you like to do you would make me a happy camper.

I know I sound like a lunatic up on a soapbox or something but please, please read all the threads on here where people are just absolutely miserable and pleading for tips and advice on how to kick that shit to the curb.

 

[woyzeck]

Bang on the money ^ On Meth you'll do stupid shit, you'll hang out with fuckheads, you'll be dishonest w/ friends, family and yourself; and I haven't touched on the real evil shit. Meth starts doing all the thinking for you.

 

[Stimmy29]

Kellsee, Pumpkin2021, Woyzeck - thank you all for your honesty. My weekend of fun starts August 26th - August 31st. I already have the meth with me and the adderall as well. I need some time to think in the next few weeks. I know 200% that I LOVE taking adderall by itself. Its great enough and I love it and I havent taken it in ~4 months, so my tolerance will be a bit lower. If I take adderall only, I will have the best weekend ever and I can then take adderall AGAIN in 4 or 5 months later and also have a good time. Its just that - if I take meth it will be a KILLER time...but I am having many second doubts now because I dont want it to ruin adderall too. Adderall has been my abuse drug that I binge on for a few days straight every 4 or 5 months. Man I was so excited to try meth. Not sure if I will now, will update this post later.

 

[tweakerguy]

I have a good job and a career

You wanna keep that for a while?

My plan is to try it for a weekend and never touch it again

I planned on having a normal life with a wife and kids by 30.
I planned on a lot of things.
I'm 39 now and haven't had either of those.

I will stay in the house the entire time.

No you won't.

Start small, a little bit goes a loooong way. 30-50 mg at most

 

[Nurse Ratched]

Kellsee, Pumpkin2021, Woyzeck - thank you all for your honesty. My weekend of fun starts August 26th - August 31st. I already have the meth with me and the adderall as well. I need some time to think in the next few weeks. I know 200% that I LOVE taking adderall by itself. Its great enough and I love it and I havent taken it in ~4 months, so my tolerance will be a bit lower. If I take adderall only, I will have the best weekend ever and I can then take adderall AGAIN in 4 or 5 months later and also have a good time. Its just that - if I take meth it will be a KILLER time...but I am having many second doubts now because I dont want it to ruin adderall too. Adderall has been my abuse drug that I binge on for a few days straight every 4 or 5 months. Man I was so excited to try meth. Not sure if I will now, will update this post later.

So you are going to hang on to the meth for 6 weeks? It sounds as though you really only want to do it just that one weekend. I really want you to have a great time so all I can say is stay safe, be aware of your surroundings, don't take any chances, and I really want you to be the guy that can just take it once to see what all the hype is about.

Don't forget to come back and let us know how your weekend went. And if you need anything else between now and then don't hesitate to post.

 

[Stimmy29]

Hello everyone. Been a week since my meth binge. Here is how it went. Took about 100mg to start. Empty stomach. Tastes absolutely awful, but man does it hit fast - like way faster than Adderall. Felt like Adderall except I felt so much more focused as if my entire body was, like a waterfall, pouring into the computer screen. I edited bunch of videos that I had to for work, came out fantastic of course. Took my dog out and drove to the park 5 min away and spent like 30 min at the park with him desperate to get back home. Came back home watched porn for 8 hours and did the deed (sorry). Took 100mg more at night - more super fucking focus. Up all night on a mission to download the best porn possible - ended up getting like 300 GB of it overnight.
Next morning, took my dog out for like 5 min (at 7:30 AM) and then back inside. Didn't even feed him - knew I had to, but was so focused on finding more porn and other stupid shit and I kept telling him "Almost done, almost done, almost done" and then finally at fucking 3 PM - I feed the love of my life. Drive him to the park and we spend like 1.5 hours.

Was on time-off from work. Decided to still log in (work remote) and replied to a few emails with 4-page fucking essays. Some emails, I am editing and accidentally send the entire draft that am still editing. 6,7 page long essay emails for simple questions. Basically spend a day working on vacation.

Then like 24 hours pass since last dosage, shit started wearing off. And it tastes so gross, I don't even want to re-dose. My German shepherd doggo - love of my life - looking at me like "what is going on man. Parents out for a week, we typically go out/spend entire day at the beach or park or do fun shit in the car with road trips, etc. You've been in the room either naked on the floor with porn for 24 hours " Sitting outside my room, wont come in.

My GF's called a few times - and we facetime for like 1-2 hours to end each night just talking or working together. Keep telling her I have been working late on work calls so no facetime. Sex sober with my GF? Nahhhhhhh porn and jacking off instead is so much better.

No water / food since. Look in the mirror: teeth yellow and fucking disgusting. Eyeballs big as the fuckin moon, overall look so goddamn dirty and disgusting. Get really angry as the shit wears off. Room smells really weird - I'm sure you know that meth/Adderall smell. Disgusting. I don't re-dose again. Take my dog for a hike. Get really emotional and start crying on the walk. Following things on my mind:
1. Parents called few times to check in, make sure everything is okay and facetimed - kept asking why are your eyes so big? Have you been eating? Eat something. You must be working so hard that you stopped eating - please eat something. And they have no idea that I'm not working. high on fucking meth doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. straight fuckin loser. And I just felt so bad that my parents have raised me well and I'm doing this nonsense.
2. I'm 29 yrs old. Make good money at a really good job. Have a good family and great GF. Choose to live at home (save$ for house + cant live without my dog) but if I decided to get my own place - would I be doing meth or addy regularly? Probably yes. I don't want that lifestyle. Was going to the gym and was developing a really decent muscular body. Getting there. This meth binge wiped everything. fucking everything. lost 25 lbs. in the week. This is why I went through hell in engineering college? To do this?
3. ITS NOT RIGHT. Can I get away with it? Likely yes. Work and then use meth and probably get away with it. And I like it, it feels good. Its fun to watch porn for so fucking long and that O finish feels sooo much better than when sober. But its one of those things that you cant logically explain WHY it shouldn't happen. It just shouldn't.

Now been about a week since my last dosage. Still have my baggy in my closet. Unable to toss it out. Things happening that weren't there before the meth binge:
1. At night before sleeping, once all the lights turn off, I get really scared of the dark now. I start freaking out of some monster or burglar that's gonna come in or just the dark in general. Really hard to fall asleep.
2. Sometimes when standing quickly after sitting or vice versa, get really light-headed and lost consciousness for 3-5 seconds sometimes. Slowly going away.
3. Randomly body shivers and brain feels like its refreshing or something
4. Something feels off from time to time in my head. But its going away.
5. Keep thinking I'm hearing stuff - like that annoying common apple ring tone or some cell phone or something - and it ends up being nothing. This is pretty much all gone now though


Besides that - been eating normal again, zero fucking desire to use it again (but still wont fucking toss it), and essentially all back to normal again. Exercising again and all too. Trying to get my weight back so I can stop wearing sweatshirts in the 90 degree California heat to stop looking so skinny. What was interesting is that I never felt any horrid comedown. I was really really angry and that was the worst of it. Pacing back and forth in my house cursing loudly and VERY frustrated and PISSED. But after that, just insomnia and no apetite. It was basically Adderall but stronger. Was taking around 100 - 200 mg on average after first dose, so it was good amounts. For all these stupid side effects, id much rather take Adderall than meth.

I think I want to remain clean from now on. The only reason for me wanting to take addy or meth again would be to go on another porn binge. Jesus Christ man - what the fuck is wrong with me. Right now I have zero desire to take anything ever again. But knowing me, I am sure in 4-5 months, I will ask my dealer for more Adderall. And as for the remaining meth hidden in my closet - I cant bring myself to toss it in-case I "might need it for a serious work situation or something". Christ man.

 

[acklac7]

Hello everyone. Been a week since my meth binge. Here is how it went. Took about 100mg to start. Empty stomach. Tastes absolutely awful, but man does it hit fast - like way faster than Adderall. Felt like Adderall except I felt so much more focused as if my entire body was, like a waterfall, pouring into the computer screen. I edited bunch of videos that I had to for work, came out fantastic of course. Took my dog out and drove to the park 5 min away and spent like 30 min at the park with him desperate to get back home. Came back home watched porn for 8 hours and did the deed (sorry). Took 100mg more at night - more super fucking focus. Up all night on a mission to download the best porn possible - ended up getting like 300 GB of it overnight.
Next morning, took my dog out for like 5 min (at 7:30 AM) and then back inside. Didn't even feed him - knew I had to, but was so focused on finding more porn and other stupid shit and I kept telling him "Almost done, almost done, almost done" and then finally at fucking 3 PM - I feed the love of my life. Drive him to the park and we spend like 1.5 hours.

Was on time-off from work. Decided to still log in (work remote) and replied to a few emails with 4-page fucking essays. Some emails, I am editing and accidentally send the entire draft that am still editing. 6,7 page long essay emails for simple questions. Basically spend a day working on vacation.

Then like 24 hours pass since last dosage, shit started wearing off. And it tastes so gross, I don't even want to re-dose. My German shepherd doggo - love of my life - looking at me like "what is going on man. Parents out for a week, we typically go out/spend entire day at the beach or park or do fun shit in the car with road trips, etc. You've been in the room either naked on the floor with porn for 24 hours " Sitting outside my room, wont come in.

My GF's called a few times - and we facetime for like 1-2 hours to end each night just talking or working together. Keep telling her I have been working late on work calls so no facetime. Sex sober with my GF? Nahhhhhhh porn and jacking off instead is so much better.

No water / food since. Look in the mirror: teeth yellow and fucking disgusting. Eyeballs big as the fuckin moon, overall look so goddamn dirty and disgusting. Get really angry as the shit wears off. Room smells really weird - I'm sure you know that meth/Adderall smell. Disgusting. I don't re-dose again. Take my dog for a hike. Get really emotional and start crying on the walk. Following things on my mind:
1. Parents called few times to check in, make sure everything is okay and facetimed - kept asking why are your eyes so big? Have you been eating? Eat something. You must be working so hard that you stopped eating - please eat something. And they have no idea that I'm not working. high on fucking meth doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. straight fuckin loser. And I just felt so bad that my parents have raised me well and I'm doing this nonsense.
2. I'm 29 yrs old. Make good money at a really good job. Have a good family and great GF. Choose to live at home (save$ for house + cant live without my dog) but if I decided to get my own place - would I be doing meth or addy regularly? Probably yes. I don't want that lifestyle. Was going to the gym and was developing a really decent muscular body. Getting there. This meth binge wiped everything. fucking everything. lost 25 lbs. in the week. This is why I went through hell in engineering college? To do this?
3. ITS NOT RIGHT. Can I get away with it? Likely yes. Work and then use meth and probably get away with it. And I like it, it feels good. Its fun to watch porn for so fucking long and that O finish feels sooo much better than when sober. But its one of those things that you cant logically explain WHY it shouldn't happen. It just shouldn't.

Now been about a week since my last dosage. Still have my baggy in my closet. Unable to toss it out. Things happening that weren't there before the meth binge:
1. At night before sleeping, once all the lights turn off, I get really scared of the dark now. I start freaking out of some monster or burglar that's gonna come in or just the dark in general. Really hard to fall asleep.
2. Sometimes when standing quickly after sitting or vice versa, get really light-headed and lost consciousness for 3-5 seconds sometimes. Slowly going away.
3. Randomly body shivers and brain feels like its refreshing or something
4. Something feels off from time to time in my head. But its going away.
5. Keep thinking I'm hearing stuff - like that annoying common apple ring tone or some cell phone or something - and it ends up being nothing. This is pretty much all gone now though


Besides that - been eating normal again, zero fucking desire to use it again (but still wont fucking toss it), and essentially all back to normal again. Exercising again and all too. Trying to get my weight back so I can stop wearing sweatshirts in the 90 degree California heat to stop looking so skinny. What was interesting is that I never felt any horrid comedown. I was really really angry and that was the worst of it. Pacing back and forth in my house cursing loudly and VERY frustrated and PISSED. But after that, just insomnia and no apetite. It was basically Adderall but stronger. Was taking around 100 - 200 mg on average after first dose, so it was good amounts. For all these stupid side effects, id much rather take Adderall than meth.

I think I want to remain clean from now on. The only reason for me wanting to take addy or meth again would be to go on another porn binge. Jesus Christ man - what the fuck is wrong with me. Right now I have zero desire to take anything ever again. But knowing me, I am sure in 4-5 months, I will ask my dealer for more Adderall. And as for the remaining meth hidden in my closet - I cant bring myself to toss it in-case I "might need it for a serious work situation or something". Christ man.

Yeah, You took too much. @Perforated, @negrogesic and @tweakerguy are EXTREMELY knowledgeable. You should have listened to them.

Do your self a favor and dump the rest. Seriously. Meth is a monster if you can't control it - and controlling it is damn-near impossible.

By the way, the "Adderall" you're getting from your dealer likely isn't Adderall, it's just more Meth.

 

[acklac7]

100mg of addy = 50mg meth?

For a first time user? 100mg of addy = 25mg of Meth. You did 4+ times that, despite being repeatedly warned not to. Please throw what you have left away. Trust me on this one.

 

[Jay123$]

Thought I would chime in with my two cents which you won’t want to hear but DONT do it ! . I am not judging you , your post reminds me of every other person with the I will just do it once ,then only on special occasions, then only on weekends , next thing there fucked . Strong meth is awesome , but it’s like sex you don’t have sex and be like I will only do it once . You want more and can’t not do it again that’s the truth dude .
better to live life not knowing and trust me you will be better off . Peace out

 

[Frazzled1990]

If you use Adderall on a regular basis, your tolerance level will go through the roof after using Meth. I would just stick with the Adderall if that's already working for you.

 

[Keif' Richards]

"I don't have an addictive personality or anything, but I've loved and adored stimulants like adderall my entire life and have decided to graduate to the King Kong of psychostimulants just cause I'm bored"

I'm sorry, but I love it. Give the researchers compiling all our shit into algorithms somethings to chuckle at man. What are the worst most uttered by folks prior to descending into Meth-fueld insanity, 72 hour masturbation sessions, wearing of santa costumes out of season, trying to steal babies from strollers et cetera.

You'll find this hard to belive, but I've got no judgement whatsoever. I only witnessed the destructive power of Methamphetamine late in life. As humans we like to explain the world around us by comparing and contrasting, using the power of analogy, we grasp at straws to understand this crazy life. One of these such analogies has long been, Morphine is to Heroin as Amphetamine is to Methamphetamine. Yours truly has long mad such a connection, but I've been there and done that and have a different opinion.

Methamphetamine is taking graduate level courses in the history of the Textile Industry in Lowell before you know your ABC's. It destroys. I know many, many old dope fiends who are assholes, unhealthy, dirty etc. Meth is different, it makes people fucking crazy.

 

[Keif' Richards]

By the way, I took those fucking courses on the history of the textile industry. Talk about the CIA working behind the scenes on the most effective ways to turn man into animal through the use of sheer sensory deprivation. The first course was half-interesting as a student of history, but the wheels were well off the train by the second week.