Greetings Possums
I did a really stupid thing.
After a long break from RC's I became curious and ordered some of this 5-mapb as well as other new-to-me compounds from Europe. Feeling brave I took a long-shot, and threw my money at some stranger in Asia as well...in a bid for some long-lost & dearly missed methylone.
Mostly, my mail was intercepted, but the 5-mapb & methylone arrived. After messing with taste tests to look for nasty reactions, I found 100mg of 5-mapb to be just like expected, from reading the few reports already here.
BUT I did something others have not mentioned, and I'm grieved over my actions and the consequences.
For 6 days I would take methylone (150-200 mg) early in the day, and in the arvo 100mg 5-mapd.
I found the 5-mapd to make me sleepy when the effects began to wear off...so I was having kind of early nights...sleeping by 10.00...usually I'm up till later.
By day 5 I woke up with a mild headache that asprin or panadol would not touch...
On the 6th night things turned into a very bad situation. I spent the night in and out of some kind of shallow sleep, without dreaming. I don't know how I knew that I was not dreaming, but I kept waking up, feeling that headache and it's connection to my inability to go into the sleep-cycle where I dream...it felt like my mind kept trying to dream, and something would go wrong, resulting in a jolt of head-ache pain, that woke me up...this went on over and over maybe like 15 times. In the morning I felt disgusting, with headache, and really ill in an unusual way...I never felt like this before, in many years of hard-core stim-use & abuse. Things got worse from there.
I stopped all use of methylone and 5-mapd. The headache was incurable with what meds I have on hand. The following night, I did manage to go into a dream-sleep, but only during the last maybe 2 hours before getting up. I know because I remember vivid and very disturbing dreams...I usually never remember any dreams...not ever for many years.
Ok...since then, the last two nights I have been dreaming.,...and fuck me, I remember really fucked up, nasty and disturbing dreams, with all kinds of insane details, they wake me up, feeling stressed or scared from the vivid and insane-like nature of the shit that I'm dreaming...it's so bad, my sleep is not making me rested when I get up, but instead I wake up feeling ill, for two nights now, and today that fucking headache is back.
I'm not confident tonight will be any better. This being-aware of my dreams feels like some serious shit...I'm not kidding about being aware of everything I'm dreaming...like I'm half-awake during sleep with insane scenarios sometimes dreaming the same thing over and over, and no control to stop it...I'm hating this, it's like an insanity...I'm feeling scared this morning.
I have loved methylone in the past. Abused it for long periods. This is not good of course, but always I have found it to be mild, and relatively benign.
This 5-mapd to me felt like a strong drug. Much stronger than Methylone...
I think my foolish behaviour of daily use for the week has damaged me in some significant way...I'm paying a heavy price, and it's not over.
Of course I am to blame. My gut feeling is the 5-mapb specifically is directly connected to what I am experiencing now.
Best wishes to all.