Alcoholism Thread v. A sober life is a good life <3

[n3ophy7e]

^^ Very wise words OD


Congrats Mehm for 4 weeks sobriety man!! That is an awesome achievement


bignbrown, I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's passing. So young. Such a tragedy. I hope you're doing okay man, take care of yourself

 

[chompy]

2 weeks off the booze with an occasional drink here and there, but

8 consecutive days without beer. It's been a hard week and I'm still struggling to stay away from it.

 

[SubDude]

Yeah that is tricky SubDude. It sounds like your drinking is reasonably under control but as I'm sure you're extremely aware, it can slip out of control so very easily. Just be careful

More complicated each day... no big problem when with family or ex-wife [gf]... 3 older children come over kinda expecting a few drinks with me. But old drinking pals is biggest challenge. Wish I didn't like their company so much.

 

[justsayknow]

I agree take the booze ads off tv.

Even the alcohol product placement in movies, sitcoms etc can be a real trigger.

I just got back from india where in many places weed and benzos seem more tolerated than the booze but watching western tv there made me want to go out and find that shady liquor store on the out skirts of town.

 

[bignbrown]

just wondering does anyone else get a day or two of withdrawals after a night of heavy drinking even if they hadnt drank for a few weeks? I think my past drink and (mainly) benzo abuse have just messed my gaba receptors up so much that just one night of getting drunk seems to give me a day or two of mild-moderate withdrawals :/

Had a small amount of whiskey today but not planning on drinking much, guess im just killing boredom.

 

[Ds]

just wondering does anyone else get a day or two of withdrawals after a night of heavy drinking even if they hadnt drank for a few weeks? I think my past drink and (mainly) benzo abuse have just messed my gaba receptors up so much that just one night of getting drunk seems to give me a day or two of mild-moderate withdrawals :/

Had a small amount of whiskey today but not planning on drinking much, guess im just killing boredom.

oh yes bigbrown, i'd get the shakes. if i drank where i wouldnt get "sick" like drank to much. if i did that for a few days and was able to somewhat function, after the 4th day or so i'd feel so out of place without taking a drink.

the sick i get from a day of heavy drinking is like "hangovers", oh shit man. those fucking suck. where i'm throwing up bile, oh its awful!

well, u need to find shit to fill that "pleasure pathway" in ur brain. without the use of drugs, and theres so much stuff out there that u can do to give u the same pleasure. it takes time man, i didn't feel great overnight, took 3 weeks before the fog left. just DONT DRINK! its that simple!


Had a good NA meeting tonight, a total of 30 years of soberity was picked up in chips. this young girl had 4 years clean, and she got sober at 18. so it's possible to us young people.
she didn't tell her story but another lady did, and she made it.

no urge to drink or drug today, been involved in recovery all day, havnt had time to just sit n isolate.
things are slowly starting to get better.
for example my sister wrote me:

"thats cool that you took something in from it. I am proud of you. I know you have a ways to go but I am very proud of you and I love you very much."
(we were talking about this addiction seminar i went to today).
thats rare coming from my family. so i'm doing something right?

 

[bignbrown]

im just stopping drinking completely i dont have a strong physical dependence on it, i ended up drinking a whole litre of whiskey last night and mum saw me in the state puking up and said she wants me out the house so ive promised her im never going to drink alone in the house again ever and planning on sticking on that as i need my parents support right now for sorting out my anxiety/depression issues which have got to the point of being extreme.

So yeah, fuck alcohol no more for me.

 

[n3ophy7e]

^^ I think that sounds like the best decision for you right now bignbrown. Good choice. You can do it man

 

[SubDude]

im just stopping drinking completely i dont have a strong physical dependence on it, i ended up drinking a whole litre of whiskey last night and mum saw me in the state puking up and said she wants me out the house so ive promised her im never going to drink alone in the house again ever and planning on sticking on that as i need my parents support right now for sorting out my anxiety/depression issues which have got to the point of being extreme.

So yeah, fuck alcohol no more for me.

Amen bro...

 

[chompy]

just wondering does anyone else get a day or two of withdrawals after a night of heavy drinking even if they hadnt drank for a few weeks? I think my past drink and (mainly) benzo abuse have just messed my gaba receptors up so much that just one night of getting drunk seems to give me a day or two of mild-moderate withdrawals :/

Had a small amount of whiskey today but not planning on drinking much, guess im just killing boredom.

yes i do, i was at 10 days sober then i drank a 40oz and a beer. woke up with a hangover and had the sweats and some slightly higher than normal blood pressure.

 

[Mehm]

D's Keep it up bro, you seem to be rocking it.

I decided to skip my meeting tonight in favor of cleaning the house. I figure it is a less selfish thing to do i dunno

 

[Ds]

thanks mehm, i'd say that's good for ur soberity mehm, gotta clean up the wreckage of our past.. haha


well chaired a meeting tonight, it was 5:50 and no one was showing up, just me and a few of the other residents here. so i was like ok ima step up.
so i broke out the reading material, passd everything out. people came, and since it was a lit meeting (NA) i started on "who is an addict", and started to read.
pretty cool, 2 people picked up white key tags, and one picked up 6 months.
so all in all, i think i did a good job.

 

[Vaportrails]

Well, today is my 4th day without a drink.

The reason I want to quit drinking, is because it's part of my plan. You see, when I was was 28, I was on the road to mediocrity, and pretty much hated myself. I was making $35,000yr after graduating 3yr college program and working for 3 years, and I was with a girl I felt luke warm about. I started drinking to fill the void, and fight the boredom. I didn't want kids, and I didn't want marriage, and I just wasn't happy with my situation. I didn't care. I was a recovering World of Warcraft addict who had gained over 80lbs in just over a year. I felt like shit pretty much all the time.

I decided to wipe the slate clean with my career, and start over. I enrolled in a prestigious University part-time, took up playing sports, and expanded my social circle.

I just turned 30, and I'm in the 2nd year of my program. I'm making progress, but I'm spinning my wheels. I've dropped about 20lbs, but I still have about 50 to lose. I play sports, but I need to stuff a cork in my mouth to keep me from eating and drinking. I have more friends, but I'm still stuck in the same relationship. My sex life stinks.

The major motivator for me right now is to meet someone at school. Most of my peers are 19-25, and I'm hoping to find someone special, and basically just do my 20s over again. This time, properly. So, I'm 30 going on 20, and I've got the world in front of me. I just need to quit drinking, find someone to love, and the rest will fall into place.

 

[Ds]

congrats vapor! keep goin at it man.

had a good talk with my sponsor today, he has me in the NA step working book, going to do step 1 this weekend.

 

[panic in paradise]

again i must add

i don't go to AA/NA myself, but i definitely hold value in the steps...
i don't have to try with it really, the process just makes sense because it does.

i can miss the sponsor thing sometimes, they are always the same good humored, make you shut up and think,,, well, i just talked my ass into a corner... type of guys.
doh!



and seriously, there isn't much more true then to needing to have the ability to; accept the things you can not change, the courage to change the things you can, and the wisdom to know the difference...
bingo, bango, bongo.

 

[Dragynfyr]

I'm wondering how hard it would be to find a doctor in my area qualified to dispense a benzo to help people survive the withdrawal process. I can't do it on my own, and I don't even get a 24 hour window before I start to fall apart, motor skills out the window, can barely talk, shaking.. can't stop or I fell like I'll die. don't want to keep doing this anymore but have no idea where to go

 

[SubDude]

Alcohol sucks bad!! My oldest best friend from the 2nd grade thru HS [chuck]and beyond got together and went to an OTB to bet horses and drink. We even ran into some other pals we use to party with and had a good time. When the Gulfstream program was over, I invited chuck over to spend the night since he lives about 15 miles away in a rooming house in a part of town I don't go into at night. He lost his drivers lic many yrs ago and couldn't afford even a clunker if he could get a lic/ins. His only income is some kind of SSI/SSD? I think about $1000 a mo? The guy has been "down and out [living in shelters... etc] for a long time. He's a morning drinker and crack addict. I actually gave him "something" to sell quickly so he wouldn't have to use his own money to bet at the OTB. I mainly did this because we stopped at a drive thru ATM and I did the transaction and noticed on his receipt he only had $279.00 to live on for the rest of the month. I also paid for his drinks and took him out to eat afterwards.

Anyway... Long story short we continued drinking at my house and started playing some low stakes 2 handed poker. About an 2 hrs into the game... I caught him "red handed" cheating. I was devasted, hurt, and pissed. I let him keep the money [about $70] and told him to get the fuck out. I hope his cab ride cost him all the money he stole from me. The money itself wasn't this issue... the theft from a "friend" was.

This never would have happened if I hadn't started drinking again and him thinking I was too drunk to notice what he was doing. It took me about 1 1/2 hrs to suspect him. He wasn't even smart about it... he was winning about 9-10 hands and getting trips, flushes, straights, and full houses about every other hand. if I wasn't drunk... he never would have tried/risked it. At least I know who he is now... people really do change... all the way to the core in some cases. He use to be a cool guy who could be trusted and everyone liked him

This is alcohol at it's worst and what it can do. My God... I can't imagine ever wanting to see him again. Yet somehow I feel partially to blame for enabling him to gamble and drink all day at little or no cost to himself. Still I don't think I can ever forgive him.

 

[SubDude]

I'm wondering how hard it would be to find a doctor in my area qualified to dispense a benzo to help people survive the withdrawal process. I can't do it on my own, and I don't even get a 24 hour window before I start to fall apart, motor skills out the window, can barely talk, shaking.. can't stop or I fell like I'll die. don't want to keep doing this anymore but have no idea where to go

Call 1-866-675-4912
24 hour a day, 7 days per week alcohol/drug helpline to assist you.

http://www.thegooddrugsguide.com/treatment-centers/index.htm

 

[Ds]

it's my sponsors 3 year birthday coming up.. going to bake him a cake :D

 

[Cyc]

rum cake?

jk :D