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What Was YOUR Nightly Fix? v. Can't Sleep Sober

Chillin hard asf still feelin my morning Kpins and butalbital

So far tonights potions-

3 Marlboros and vaping triple berry ice think I'll have a few cigars too

50mg caffeine
50mg butalbital
3mg clonazepam ODT
150mg hydroxyzine
Plus my plug had some 🔥 so I'm smoking some 34 percent Purple Cake bud thru 3 king sized cones 👑

Hope y'all bein safe and well ✌🏼☮️❤️ 🙏🏼
 
Sad fuck it and added another 100mg of butalbital and 50mg more of hydroxyzine

But I'll not be taking anymore clonazepam tonight hopefully

Feeling good as fuckin shit but remorseful for it 😢

Fuckin gabaminergics are my heroin 😞
 
Failed and took another 2mg clonazepam about an hour after I passed out from all the cumulative butalbital almost 500mg total today) but I only slept an hour or so

Fuckin Insomnia is a true curse almast as bad as my panic disorder not equally as bad but damn close🤬

But I'll try to do better tomorrow 🙏🏼 just one day at a time so they say

Feel like I'm floating but don't feel good about it considering I truly need the shit for my insomnia,mania,
agoraphobia,OCD
GAD,PTSD

Plus the several panic attacks I have every damn day from the panic disorder and PTSD ect 😞

hope y'all keep fighting the good fight and get thru and maintain your resolve with your struggles

God bless all of you and I truly pray God sees you thu 🙏🏼❤️
 
Spaced said:
Failed and took another 2mg clonazepam about an hour after I passed out from all the cumulative butalbital almost 500mg total today) but I only slept an hour or so

Fuckin Insomnia is a true curse almast as bad as my panic disorder not equally as bad but damn close🤬

But I'll try to do better tomorrow 🙏🏼 just one day at a time so they say

Feel like I'm floating but don't feel good about it considering I truly need the shit for my insomnia,mania,
agoraphobia,OCD
GAD,PTSD

Plus the several panic attacks I have every damn day from the panic disorder and PTSD ect 😞

hope y'all keep fighting the good fight and get thru and maintain your resolve with your struggles

God bless all of you and I truly pray God sees you thu 🙏🏼❤️
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Wow I can relate… I struggle with insomnia, panic attacks, severe PTSD ect.
Just woke up for what feels like the hundredth time so I took more hydromorphone and Xanax & said screw it & made a coffee since I’m up anyways.
One day at a time for sure, a lot of days are one moment at a time too
Be easy as you can on yourself
Big hug 💕💜
 
Speak of the devil... I just had an insane PTSD episode and my eyes are pure shell shocked right now. This is such a difficult condition to live with. I completely lost myself, had no contact to the person I am. It's C-PTSD for me, so this doesn't happen every day, but from time to time and a very bad 4 or 5 day attack last August.
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
Wow I can relate… I struggle with insomnia, panic attacks, severe PTSD ect.
Just woke up for what feels like the hundredth time so I took more hydromorphone and Xanax & said screw it & made a coffee since I’m up anyways.
One day at a time for sure, a lot of days are one moment at a time too
Be easy as you can on yourself
Big hug 💕💜
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Preciate the understanding and the advice God knows being extremely harsh on yourself will actually make you wanna abuse more

Again thank you I needed to hear that it was very considerate ❤️ God bless you 🙏🏼
 
BourbonMac said:
Speak of the devil... I just had an insane PTSD episode and my eyes are pure shell shocked right now. This is such a difficult condition to live with. I completely lost myself, had no contact to the person I am. It's C-PTSD for me, so this doesn't happen every day, but from time to time and a very bad 4 or 5 day attack last August.
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I'm truly sorry to hear your struggles and I truly hope things change in your future and I will be praying for you tonight 🙏🏼 truly i will❤️
 
Coffeeshroom said:
@Spaced

Mind giving a breakdown of your daily med intake and what it's used for, if you don't mind?
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No problem at all my friend

For my mania and panic disorder and PTSD I take 90 1mg clonazepam a day orally dissenting tablets to be precise

For my constant migraines antagonized by my insomnia and everything else I got I take 30 floricet a month as needed 2 at a time every 4 hours and use them together with the clonazepam when desperate stupid as it is

For my anxiety and sleep I get 60 25mg Hydroxyzine instant release twice a day I take along with my clonazepam intake

I also get 30 300mg gabapentin twice a day for my anxiety and to help all my other meds work better

And I'm 21 and I have to take blood pressure meds due to all mental shit and that's losartan 25mg twice a day and prolly gon have to up it soon too

I think that covers my legal meds lol
 
Spaced said:
Oh hell no 3mg a day per month🤣
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Lol I was hoping so 😅

So what is your daily prescribed or self administrator dose off meds and Maybe we can see where we can make changes or tweaks so you get more relieve for the insomnia part
 
Coffeeshroom said:
Lol I was hoping so 😅

So what is your daily prescribed or self administrator dose off meds and Maybe we can see where we can make changes or tweaks so you get more relieve for the insomnia part
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That's my prescribed dosage of meds but I tend to tip the scales but without running out before my next script

Luckily I've got a healthy fear of benzos

(bout 2 years ago I pooped over 300 mg of alprazolam a day) without blacking out for over a year

Plus another 2 years to mostly get over selling and dealing to maintain my habit not to mention the PAWS and it was a hell like no other getting off that type of dosage to say the least by.

It's fuckin mother fuckin deal with a benzo habit when u truly truly truly need it for your mental disorders

but any tips or ideas or advice would be greatly greatly appreciated

Thank you for your consideration truly 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
 
Spaced said:
That's my prescribed dosage of meds but I tend to tip the scales but without running out before my next script

Luckily I've got a healthy fear of benzos

(bout 2 years ago I pooped over 300 mg of alprazolam a day) without blacking out for over a year

Plus another 2 years to mostly get over selling and dealing to maintain my habit not to mention the PAWS and it was a hell like no other getting off that type of dosage to say the least by.

It's fuckin mother fuckin deal with a benzo habit when u truly truly truly need it for your mental disorders

but any tips or ideas or advice would be greatly greatly appreciated

Thank you for your consideration truly 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
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But any advice or tips or anything is greatly greatly greatly appreciated thank you for your hospitality 🙏🏼
 
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