i hope i can manage to stay get through dope wd and stay clean. i'm still debating taking a week off work since my car is still in the shop, that'd give me time to detox without having to worry about how i'm going to get through the workday.
Aah I don't miss having to have that talk with myself... Good luck, I hope it all works out for you.
Dope w/d is a bitch but looking back it really wasn't nearly as hard as I'd built it up to be in my head. Especially if you can get your hands on some benzos and keep that immodium handy. There are SO many things you can do to help dull the misery, I'm sure you know by now they're all over this website and some do work (though none are a miracle cure)
It's been 4 1/2 years now since I kicked the habit, I can't say I've fully recovered mentally (nor will I ever) but the physical part ain't that bad if you're determined. Just treat it as being actual sick, don't even entertain the idea that "if I get some more I'll feel better, I don't have to deal with this", just treat the symptoms. Taking time off is a great option if you have it available. I waited till a long weekend, stopped two days before so my effects were minimal at work the days before I left just played it off like I was catching a cold then I had the worst days off at home. Longer would've been nicer but you can make do even with short time, depending on how deep in you are now.
It also really helps if you have a reason to stay clean. I originally was just trying to take a break to lower my tolerance, but during that planned month or two of clean time I started dating the woman who is now my wife. That piece of random ended up turning into my future. She was so sweet and innocent I didn't want to risk losing her and going back to my shitbag ways. I've had a couple relapses along the way, some planned some not, but they were a week or less, I made sure to make it really hard to find more (without going looking for it), deleted all my contacts etc, and ended up moving out of state (something I always wanted to do I just finally got around to doing it). Apparently it's all over the place here too but I just think about all I stand to lose if I get back on full time and I don't bother searching it out.
But seriously, like I said before, good luck. I think if you really want to get clean it's not this impossible thing everyone is convinced it is. It takes some willpower and self respect, which I know can be in short supply when you're hooked on dope, but it's totally doable. Both Memphis' and my worthless asses pulled it off, I'm sure you can too. (no not that kind of "pulled it off" though I know memph probably wants to)