Hello fellow bluelighters. Been a while since I posted on this forum.
A quick question for ya'll.
What do you personally find more addictive, heroin or meth?
What's harder to moderate usage?
What's harder to quit?
Which had a bigger effect on your family/friends/education/job etc ?
I've dabbled with H and bunch of other opiates and experienced the withdrawals first hand, but I've only tried meth once.
The closest stimulant habit close to meth I had was Adderall. At my worst I was taking 100mg+ a day, but I'm aware meth is another beast.
The "withdrawal", or whatever you wanna call it, from adderall was really shitty. I slept for like a week straight and only woke up to eat and use the bathroom. Extreme fatigue, absolutely no motivation or desire to do anything but curl up in my bed and sleep. Oh, and the devastating depression. I've heard meth is worse.
Still, I think the physical withdrawals that comes with opiates makes it worse and harder to get through.
I'm sure everyone has their own differences, opinions, and experiences so please share.
Which is the worse addiction?
I was an IV meth addict for quite a few years, then I only ever took heroin now and again, haven't been a meth user in over 5 years, but have been an IV heroin addict the last few years.
I've posted about this a few times, so I'll be fairly brief, but basically:
For me meth addiction was an order of magnitude more destructive, I lost a lot of jobs, friendships, etc. I stole from friends/family, done a lot of other shady shit too, for various stupid reason. Basically my life was completely unmanageable, frequently not having rent money, losing my job, falling out with house-mates. It even had a pretty severe impact on my family relationships.
Whereas - with heroin shit is waaay more stable, I can hold a job, relationships, etc.
All that said, heroin, for me at least, is an order of magnitude more addictive. Probably precisely because it's not destructive on life; it is oh so easy to go to work, family functions, etc on heroin. Heroin is fucking insidious.
EDIT: Oh - and the physical withdrawals - god damn! Not just acute stage either, but PAWS is pretty horrible too. RLS is the fucking worst thing Jesus ever invented.
As to which addiction is 'worse' - that is tough, I mean, at least with meth I eventually kicked it, I'm having a hard time attempting that with heroin, but - on the other hand, whilst heroin is a nightmare of sorts, my life is basically stable, just a bit sad/pathetic. I'd probably say, that for me at least, meth was a worse addiction; I actually ended up homeless for a period, as a result of meth, heroin has never done that (to me). I also completely lost my fucking mind / grip on reality, eventually, as a meth addict; not in an 'acute' sense, but as a fucking permanent state of being, eventually.