I've never had to put up with the kind of situation you describe, LillyStix. I've had the guys I deal with get aggressive, but nothing like like what you describe. I believe it though. There's a guy with a rep for doing exactly what you describe; this guy apparently always had hard core porn on when girls came by to score and cameras set up in the bathroom and stuff. I won't go down that road. In fact, I'm determined to stick to my weekly supply of 60/30mg. There's no reason that shouldn't hold me. I'm not playing these games anymore. No one has ever done anything like that to me, or touched me without my permission. they probably know I'd freak out. They try to hit on my and it gets old quickly, but no one, no one should have suffer the kind of bullshit that you are. I don't know what to tell you.
Do you have a legitimate prescription? Can you get by on that? If you don't, I don't know. I said at one point that I just wanted to go with heroin cause it was cheaper and easier to get but my dealer freaked out. To this day, I don't know if he was genuinely concerned about me, or about losing my custom. Bottom line. There's better stuff than oxy, cheaper if you're using it only for a high. The problem, I've found, is that as soon as you start liking and wanting it, they'll raise the price on you. People can be such assholes.
You're totally right - as soon as you start like it and wanting it people def. raise the prices on you! This is a bit embarrassing but I have no more prescriptions my doctor retired a bit before they brought out NEO and concurrently, new restrictive legislation on oxy (delisted in many cases and as I understand it, it became a lot more complicated, and subject to review/oversight for doctors to prescribe almost overnight). Where I live in Canada, they brought out the new formulation in 2010 and when they did they also did a major push to kick people off even those who had legitimate prescriptions. It was a bad time because a were loosing their scripts and at the same time no generic varieties were available - only the tamper proof formulation and if you were used to instant release it was very shitty to adapt to it. There was no room in any rehab programs because they didn't create extra programs to accommodate the increasing demand...
It was shitty time for my doctor to retire and I didn't get in to see him in time because he left because just before I was in another province doing caregiving for my mom... At least I had cut back a bit while I was doing that between not having any connections in that city and giving my mom some of my pills when she needed them I thought maybe I would be ok.. I had brought extra that I had bought before leaving to begin with (I was not travelling by plane or anything so it was ok). I found a new doctor but she was appalled that I was so young and on oxy and she categorically refused to continue renewing my script... I felt pretty embarassed of going to any more doctors begging for pills... It's weird, I was surprised that she wouldn't even taper me down or anything - I don't think she realized what it was like she said people that took oxy or another opiate after surgery were fine when their meds ran out so why wouldn't I be? I was like WTF - it's not like I've been taking these for two weeks when your body is primed for years it's totally different. The only thing she did do for me is make some phone calls and get me into an outpatient program because I was back at work and had tried getting a spot and there were waiting lists everywhere..
I was on the suboxone program for a few months but I didn't really stop using I just cut down a lot (and the sub did help with that) but they kept getting mad at me everytime I flagged positive (which was every almost every time) and it was kind of awkward. I know it's weird to be taking the oxy AND the sub because you're probably blocking it but I still felt better when I took it. Long story short - I haven't had a script in years and lately I've been thinking I should maybe go back to the outpatient treatment. It's just hard because I remember the first week I felt was a bit of write off - I didn't get leg pains or nerve pain and the sweats were very mild because of the sub but I was soooooooo tired. I work two jobs now and I can't seem to get any time off... Excuses, excuses, i know... I don't think I could get a script now because my spinal issues are much better than they were and if I'm being honest I probably don't need it... I feel like I've just been taking it not to get sick for a while now...
I saw your thread and I think you must be much more stoic than me! I don't know how you did what you did but it's an inspiration to me and I was reading it smiling and thinking "good for her! You go girl!" - I hope it's going well and that you're feeling good today! : )