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Creating Positive Change vs. If Nothing Changes Then Nothing Changes..

smoke less weed, quit/long term break soon
keep my current job and appreciate it
stay in school and keep grades up
STAY IN SCHOOL
start working out again
get back into electrical work
become independent again
practice music daily
wake up early to do stretches and vocal routine, make it a habit
play open mic before months over
tell my dad I love him
 
Finish the book I'm working on (min two hours per day)
Continue to Hit gym 5 days a week 4 ever
bust out a law degree and join formation with the ACLU
40 minutes regenerative meditation per day
Take up a mediterranean diet and even limit carbs even more than it calls for. =D
Quit tobacco, AGAIN.(your old boyhood friend just got diagnosed with terminal cancer!)
Pick out new glasses
Get payment off to her
Renew passport
Research housing
Complete and hand in paperwork for clean
start to organize my stuff for move.
Weed through all my keepsakes
Get new tires
Figure out baggage for move
pick up insoles
get passport picture
hash out a deal for repayment
make repayment
Call IL
Make sure to get to appointment 2 tues
Draw up business outline
Draw up budget
get new brakes
 
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Finish the book I'm working on (min two hours per day)
Continue to Hit gym 5 days a week 4 ever
40 minutes regenerative meditation per day
Quit tobacco, AGAIN.(your old boyhood friend just got diagnosed with terminal cancer!)
Pick out new glasses
Get payment off to her
Renew passport
Research housing
Complete and hand in paperwork for clean
start to organize my stuff for move.
Weed through all my keepsakes
Get new tires
Figure out baggage for move
hash out a deal for repayment
make repayment
Call IL
Make sure to get to appointment 2 tues
Draw up business outline
Draw up budget
get new brakes
clean room
clean bathroom
do laundry
weed through junk and donate what I don't need
talk w pops
get going an this crap
 
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Finish the book I'm working on (min two hours per day)
Continue to Hit gym 5 days a week 4 ever
40 minutes regenerative meditation per day
Quit tobacco, AGAIN.(your old boyhood friend just got diagnosed with terminal cancer!)
Pick out new glasses
Get payment off to her
Renew passport
Research housing
Complete and hand in paperwork for clean
start to organize my stuff for move.
Weed through all my keepsakes
Get new tires
Figure out baggage for move
hash out a deal for repayment
make repayment
Call IL
Make sure to get to appointment 2 tues
Draw up business outline
Draw up budget
get new brakes
clean room
clean bathroom
do laundry
weed through junk and donate what I don't need
talk w pops
get going an this crap
initiate process
write up history and argument
get payment off
 
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Decide whether you want to stay using methadone 80 mg everyday for the rest of your life, done!
Decrease methadone, prepare to jump from actual 10 mg. Withdraws are making this harder than planned.
Look for ways to recuperate my body´s endorphin after 7 years on Mdone.
Exercise 3 times a week.
Plan my weekends to include movies and nights out
Try to have fun even if it looks boring in the beginning.
Plan a trip with my wife and my youngest other than work trips during winter
Become more productive
Be more romantic.
Celebrate life!
 
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rrsp cheque - done
save up - still in process lol
pack up for trip - not done
work project - not done
sleep early - yes working on it
 
Sleeping has been the greatest problem for me!
I was going to include it in my list but don´t really know how to solve it..
 
Ok...so procrastination, sleeping all day and a general lack of motivation are becoming serious issues for me. Like really really serious and my life is falling apart because of it. I need to join this thread in a pretty serious way. I'm going to start writing daily lists of things to do here to see if it helps, thinking of my list for tomorrow now. Really hope I can get my arse in gear this way as my failure to take part in life and the urge to just shut everything out and try and sleep my life away is really fucking my life up and making me seriously unhappy, I might as well be on the gear going about my life as I am now.
 
Get out of bed you lazt cunt
Three hours university work
Chase orthopeadic department about my operation
Begin looking for a flat
Spend five minutes showing myself some love/reminding myself that it's ok to be Owain

That's perfectly achievable, I have no excuses for not doing those things. I'm going to try and post up a list each evening of things I should be able to achieve relatively easily the next day. I really hope I can start making the changes I need to otherwise I can see things going really wrong for me. At the moment my life is just tailing off in to oblivion and the chances I have are slipping away. Frankly they already have to a large degree, but if I can just find some motivation and start moving in the direction I want to be I might at least hate myself a little bit less.

...and here's one for the rest of today:

fill out extenutating circumstances form for university

edit: spend 30 mintues writing my book as well


If anyone fancies chasing me up on these and calling me a cunt if I haven't sone them it would be much appreciated.
 
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^ Chase up Owain on the off chance I can call him a cunt

Make sure Owain knows that it took me 7 months to find any optimism and hope for myself after quitting my 15 year binge. ...this shit takes time man, don't be so hard on yourself because you are actually making amazing progress! <3
 
Thanks man, it's nice to hear:)

Think I need to do my 5 minutes reminding myself it's ok to be me, feel pretty fucked up today for some reason.
 
THECATINTHEHAT said:
Thanks man, it's nice to hear:)

Think I need to do my 5 minutes reminding myself it's ok to be me, feel pretty fucked up today for some reason.
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Man, you know it is par for the course. I felt fucked up everyday for 7 months. I did not think it would ever end, but it does (or at least it improves immensely). Just hang in there and do the best you can, eventually it will be so worth it!
 
Finish the book I'm working on (min two hours per day)
Continue to Hit gym 5 days a week 4 ever
40 minutes regenerative meditation per day
Quit tobacco, AGAIN.(your old boyhood friend just got diagnosed with terminal cancer!)
Pick out new glasses
Get payment off to her
Research housing
start to organize my stuff for move.
finish organizing stuff
Weed through all my keepsakes
Get new tires
Figure out baggage for move
make repayment
Draw up business outline
get new brakes
weed through junk and donate what I don't need
get payment off
Get new tires and ball joints
arrange quick conversation
drop rig off to the shop
 
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Finish the book I'm working on (min two hours per day)
Continue to Hit gym 5 days a week 4 ever
40 minutes regenerative meditation per day
Quit tobacco, AGAIN.(your old boyhood friend just got diagnosed with terminal cancer!)
Pick out new glasses
Get payment off to her
Research housing
start to organize my stuff for move.
finish organizing my stuff for move
Weed through all my keepsakes
Figure out baggage for move
make repayment
Draw up business outline
weed through junk and donate what I don't need
arrange quick conversation
Make call and deal with issue on the 14th
Get stuff notarized and send the stuff in
Request one final check
pester Ill until they get their heads outta thier..
contact professional support to look into matter
 
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I am going to try and begin a taper off of the drugs I have been taking over the last year. Cutting back on the alcohol intake and the mxe as well. My addictions have spiraled out of control and it is affecting my life in a very bad way. I am going to focus on positive things in my life, my family being the most important, and try and stop obsessing over these things constantly. This cycle must stop. I have been down this road and I know and can tell where it is headed. Only I can change and I am ready to at least try. I can't keep living this way only I can make myself happy. I also want to start making more positive posts in Bluelight and try to be more supportive to others needs. I believe we can help ourselves by helping each other. <3
 
Finish the book I'm working on (min two hours per day)
Continue to Hit gym 5 days a week 4 ever
40 minutes regenerative meditation per day
Quit tobacco, AGAIN.(your old boyhood friend just got diagnosed with terminal cancer!)

Research housing
weed through junk and donate what I don't need
Weed through all my keepsakes
Post tree
Pick up winter dog shit
Clean D
organize and clean basement

Make call and deal with issue on the 14th
make repayment
nail down IL
pay photo ticket
Pick out new glasses

Figure out move
Draw up business outline
File taxes
 
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