Hi there everyone. Inspiring plans and intentions from everyone. I wish all previous posters in this thread the best of luck.
Now addressing Allein directly: I really hope you find yourself an excellent therapist/ counsellor in the private sector. I too share your opinions about the poor standard of care provided for U.K. citizens with drug addiction problems on the NHS....but I reckon what I have to say here will probably resonate with fellow Blue lighters in the states and oz/nz too......
Services for those with mental health and/or drug addiction problems ALWAYS end up being the first to be cut or scaled down when bastards in government (and Im mainly referring to the brutally nasty Tories) need to save enough money to finance tax cuts to in effect bribe the electorate into keeping said politicians in government.
The sad truth is that those who are downtrodden and left to their own devices to in effect fend for themselves - such as, for example, people with addiction and mental health problems - are extremely unlikely to be actively involved in the political process and even less likely to vote, never mind kicking up any fuss about how little the powers that be care about mental health patients and people with addiction problems.
It always seems such short sighted thinking - and the ultimate example of a false economy - when those in charge of the NHS treat the intimately connected fields of treatment of addiction and mental health with such disdain........ almost as an afterthought of little consequence.
Some years ago I remember reading a serious academic paper which concluded that for every pound spent on addiction treatment and mental health services for those suffering from addiction today it saved something like seven pounds further down the line.
I went to my GP a week ago to tell him how much I'm still struggling with severe depression, that I have a concrete suicide plan formulated and that I think about it daily......and I asked him if we could either increase or decrease my antidepressant dose age or perhaps try a different antidepressant. He treated me with such uncaring disdain and sent me away with the web address for my local council's mental health services. He just made me feel like such scum I broke down in tears in the middle of the fucking supermarket ten minutes later.
Just like this thread's title I'm trying my hardest to be creating positive change for myself but like the previous poster Allein I've sought help from the healthcare profession and was shocked to discover that there really is not much help of any substance to be found therein and that I'm really on my own.
The only reason I'm still hanging in there and havent killed myself yet is that I think my suicide would impact most severely on my folks and brothers yet I continue to be signed off with depression by my doctors and I continue languishing in this mental health problem limbo.
Something has to give.