Well, I had a breakthrough this weekend. Something just clicked inside of me. It's like I'm a new person.
Son Of a Bitch, Everything's Real...yep.
I use to be late to work because I slept in..or whatever...even during my 17+months of sobriety last year, I could not get up for work to save my life...but I didn't get any sleep for the first 4months of that sobriety. Now, I'm late for work in the mornings because I want to wake up and hang out with my 14month old daughter. It's amazing to me...I never thought that there would be anyone I'd ever put before myself, but surprise at what the (multi)universe will bring to you if you are open and connected.
But anyways...I've finally found another musician to play with. We've only had one jam together, but I really think we have something. I suck at guitar, but I was feeling every note I was playing with an old friend, and this new kid, on drums or bass(I didn't get to really play anything else though). My wife is also getting very talented on drums. She's been grooving on my synth for quite a while, and she's starting to pick up bass...so if this new kid doesn't want to get serious, she is in training.
I try to live a thought out life. I try to think about how this action effects the world. For example, I vape, so I may pull out my mod, but I go outside with the smokers(isn't fully banned around my area yet). Or another example, I'm at a store, and I come in contact with someone working there, or just shopping. I try to make eye contact with that person, and just say "Hey, how are you doing?....you have a great day." It may not seem like much, but just that little chit-chat, or a compliment, could make someone's day...be warned, there are some very chatty people out there, but you can learn something new from something you've heard before from a different person.
I notice on the days that I don't do simple stuff like this, I am in a complete funk..even with my hobbies and businesses.
Today is a great day, and that will only make tomorrow even better....yeah, rent is due at the end of the month, and hopefully the utility company will give me an extension, until the next bill's cutoff date, because I am broke from taking off so much from being sick from bupre/alpra jump...but everything will be fine. I can't let this kind of stuff get to me.
And we all need to remember this: We don't only intake nutrients from eating and drinking. We are absorbing through all of our senses. If we're hanging out with losers, hearing about a bunch of high school drama bullshit, watching the plethora of soul cancer available on TV and the radio.., no matter how awesome we are, we will end up sinking to that level. Elevate ourselves in every way possible, and experience something new, and set and example for others that may see this way of life...(Yeah, my girl showed me that on some facebook..or whatever.. I've always lived this way, but it was very refreshing to hear that on an internet video.)
I just remember getting stopped in circle, being told to reword my statements better... WE are in this together...regardless if you're having troubles with addiction/alcoholism/other bs or a non-addict/alcoholic.
I haven't taken anything in a week+(outside of the extremely low amounts of nicotine from vaping), but today is day 1, and it will always be day 1.
Congrats to everyone that's trying, and congrats to everyone succeeding.
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