Vortech, wanna send you some good vibes, man! Maybe I'll put on some cool music whose soundwaves should ultimately reach you, however dilute.
Floaty floaty lofty lofty
Taking drugs is definitely a skill, especially psychedelics. I wouldn't say it's your only talent though psood.
That does it, I'm putting it on my resume.
It's maybe just some kind of neutral attribute that can totally destroy and totally elevate a person, depending on their own orientation towards either. Its almost like the most 'pure' hobby one can have, the manipulation of the actual perceiver rather then that being perceived. Instead of creating or making, you are just existing in the moment, the focus of your attention is the present and you are largely unaware of the flow of time, absorbed in the way that humans developed hobbies and passions for in the first place (maybe). In other words, all hail drugs.
I think you just blew my mind buddy :D
Hmm. I think love the idea of you creating furniture :D
My main project atm is the growth and maintenance of my small garden, where I've just begun growing valerian and sweet potato along with some other staple vegetables. I let some ipomaea indica run wild along the back fence and encouraged the growth of solanum mauritianum now that I don't have a dog. Two cuttings of san pedro are doing well also
There is some suspense @ my armoire since I temporarily suspended the project. Was too busy. Now when I buy some black tea, I can continue (doing test patches with staining the wood etc). Also I hope everything is a snug fit.
Bit anxious but i have faith
Cool a garden, my ground is way too muddy unfortunately and there is an insane number of snails... but I grow oleander and there is other stuff that is literally suspended, above ground from the snails. Mostly it's salvia and cuttings thereof, lol. But I plan to trade for cool ethnobotanic seeds soon.
Also I volunteer at a biological veg garden, was there this morning and harvested zucchinis and more. I took parsnip home with me for free. Pretty nice!
I had to get up at 6 a.m. after 2 hours of sleep cause I was at my girlfriend's and had an amazing time yet again. And again we got heavy stuff 'out of the way' like wanting children. But yeah, exhausted now...
I've really come a long way in 2014, I look back and it seems like 2 years since the winter ended. It amazes me how different my life is, and how much better. I literally wanted to die in late 2013, it was the worst year of my life. And now, such a short time later, I've had one of the best years of my life. And I don't know if that would have been true without this place. Hopefully that can be an inspiration to those currently struggling... life can always turn around, and it can happen much more quickly than you'd think. Sometimes it just takes identifying an area or areas in your life that you are unfilled, or that are not working for you, and changing those things. For me it was being addicted to opiates, and being in a relationship that was causing me a tremendous amount of pain. I fixed those things and within weeks my life felt completely different. A lot of the time we stay in bad situations because it's easier to maintain the status quo than it is to change. But really it's not easier, it's much harder, it's just that it FEELS easier to stay the same because even if it's painful, it's comfortable in a way.
Lots of love in PD this morning/last night.
I feel the same way about PD being very therapeutic, and although in some ways like a cuddle puddle from time to time (no complaints lol), very supportive and reliably so.
Also yeah willow I agree, PDers have seen a lót of hardship / hardshit - which is also why the support is so important. Glad you are doing so much better Xorkoth, sorry it had to be that way that you got divorced... and I'm sure the iboga adventure was also super intense and complicated. I'm doing a lot better, too - really been doing my best these recent years. I think it was about 2012 that I nearly died from abuse, look how far we've come already. In the light of all tragedies ultimately encouraging. Pregabalin is also cheating a bit cause like for the recent erowid trip reporter it gives me a lot of courage / confidence.
Good, you should, we like more participants.
I've made a lot of real friends as a result of this social thread.
This is from a couple of pages back, but I find myself doing the same thing. She doesn't do drugs much, so when I'm hanging out with her I don't really want to either, just because I want to be on the same level as her. And it's not like I am depriving myself, it's that I don't want to, versus with my other friends or by myself I do want to because it's fun and I have no compelling reason not to. I do smoke around her, if other people are... this does not seem to bother her at all though and I don't really experience much of a mental plane shift from marijuana unless I get super stoned, I don't feel inhibited in interacting with her when I'm weed high. I'm sure this is a good thing for me, probably healthier than someone who wants to do drugs as much as I do.
Ha yes typical I guess. She reacted by wanting to show me as an illustration, this song 'you are my high' and it was pretty funny that I'm very familiar with it and knew the artist. I guess it's a bit corny but it conveys a similar sentiment.
By the way, IV 5-MeO-DMT, whew... and I thought IM is crazy. It's IMO definitely the shortest shortcut to extremely altered states of consciousness like rapture, torture, heaven, hell, samadhi, mystically shrouded temporary enlightenment, insanity - take your pick...