1.2g DXM, 30mg hydrocodone, 60mg temazepam, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, weed, 150mg doxylamine succinate, 125mg diphenhydramine, 800mg cimetidine to potentiate.
First 900mg kicking in good and getting stronger but I may be having a bad trip with the anxiety, feeling of impending doom, and paranoid feeling I am being watched somehow when my door is shut and my windows are covered in foil to keep out the light - feels like someone looking through. Evil aliens, God, or something/someone else radiating fear from the evil inside them.
I also don't think I want to do meth again. That shit is not good for me.
I may repeatedly redose on DXM to get to this state where I can close my eyes and it is like being in a computer or surrounded by holographic technology. The strong part is usually post apocalyptic vision states or shit with the aliens or rarely God. God has told me more than once in dreams and a trip that I would die at age 49 and be miserable until then, so screw that asshole.
Update: So close to breaking through and also not as anxious, so hear goes another 900mg DXM.