Update:
I got myself a new job.
A consistent one, for now until I start working with my father in March. I got a source of income and have been very productive lately, working many hours, working out physically and doing good mentally. Despite this, I have stuck to my MXE habits. I ordered 2 grams last week, and went through it in about 4 days (a usual for me when I have low amounts). I went to work one day on about 150mg, a little more than I intended on doing as I only needed it for stimulation. When I got there, I was a little disoriented from the brutal cold weather and the 4am meet up time. Fortunately the hour van ride to the job site with my crew sobered me up, along with a redbull. I will take note to not do that again as I was a little concerned for my job when I started my shift. Not a good idea at all despite my confidence in being able to handle myself on any substance.