Albion
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I wouldn't be that afraid about insomnia with speed if I'd only take it in very small bumps during daytime (in such small doses I barely feel it), and bear with the brain zaps after work. Amphetamine psychosis is usually caused by large doses and no sleep. And I have quite an arsenal of sleep aids, I'm on mirtazapine now which is heavily sedating.
For me MXE feels truly stimulating only in large doses, so I don't know how it would go together with working. I feel it more like an opiate in small doses, although it still acts as a stimulant, but I'm definitely not clear-headed like on speed. Quite the opposite.
But I do see your point, weeks of speed, even in small doses and with sleep, it could trigger some very unwanted side effects. On the other hand, is it really that different from taking caffeine (which doesn't help me with brain zaps and gives me panic attacks) daily?. Most people take caffeine at work through the whole day. Caffeine is even more stimulating than speed for me.
Constantly taking small doses of amphetamine all day could leave you feeling burnt out in no time. It'd suppress your appetite as well, so appetite may get out of sync with what your body really needs at any particular moment. If I had to choose between amphetamine and MXE, I'd got for MXE hands down for the long term program. Also, if you get caught with it, tis a darn sight better than getting caught with speed.
Speed is more inherently euphoric, and would seem like the favourable option in the short term, but I think it'd get to you over time.