I wish I could try Xanax,
BUT however for some strange reason I can't for the life of me convince my psychiatrist to switch me from 20mg valium 2x daily to Xanax, he keeps telling me I would have to take it more times a day because its shorter acting than Valium and it makes you feel more dopey like street drugs. I felt like saying, that's what I want, anyone got any ideas on what to say the next time I see him so he will switch me to Xanax?
Sadly my tolerance to Valium is so high now that even if I take 7 at once I dont get much a buzz, its the same as taking it as prescribed now. But when I first started Valium, I felt lovely along with my mmt. Now it doesn't do much at all. If I switched to Ativan, basically switching to any other benzo's would it bring back the high I got since I've been on Valium for 2 years now?
Back when I was 19, I found two bottles of Ativan 10mg pills, one bottle was half full and the other was a little less than half full of cut in half pills because my Dad was trying to cut down on them. Long story short I took them all and hid them, took one 10mg pill and was not craving booze at all anymore and suddenly my severe depression that was crippling me for some years already was gone and suddenly I was calm, happy energetic, ambitious and laughing. Damn laughing got me in trouble, my stepmom and dad who I was living with at the time, she found out and found my stash and flushed it. I was so pissed, all she did was call the er and they said for me to drink lots of water and come in if I start looking a certain way or acting like I might go into a seizure.
Had I known after taking them for a week of bliss that wd's would be a few week long hell, I would have faked symptoms just so my stepmom would taken me to er and I would be put on ativan lol. My Dad who passed on in 96 was so hooked on benzo's all his life and would drink with them too and feel REAL good. I wish I knew his doctor who gave him scripts out like candy so I could have started them.