I'm still alive Finally i don't take 4-Ho-MET, will wait a while...
I am curious, what was the frequency of tripping on metocin when your trips began to change? Because there was a period of time a ways back where I took mushrooms every other day for about two weeks. That didn't do me in, what did was trying to redose without waiting a day. Obviously, every other day for two weeks counts as abuse in my book, and the tolerance got huge, but I never had a bad trip until the final time when I didn't skip a day in between dosing. I had the most listless and emotionally avoidant experience as did my tripping partner that had also been on the heavy mushroom schedule.
Feeling no motivation, visuals washed out, unable to become interested in anything, feeling 'dead', that's all what we felt that day.
I doubt you've been on a similar dosing regime.. heh, but even so I thought I'd mention it. After backing off everything was okay when I chose to trip again.