Hey I am a 19 year old guy and I’ve been on Liquid Methadone for about 10 months. I do not go to a clinic or anything. A family member of mine does though and they’ve been giving me some for about 10 months. They let me try it and I liked it and this family member of mine is known to enable people pretty hard. They started giving it to me everyday and I was like hell yea. I did not know that a dependency to it would form so quickly. I’ve used drugs very heavily since about 10th grade so 3 years now. You name it Coke, Xans, Perc, Oxy, Molly, All the Psychedelics, the pressed M30s. A bunch of others but whatever. Anyways I have never gained a dependency to any drug before this. I had always done drugs in binges then on to the next. Come back to the same ones again a bunch but I never stayed long enough to really form a physical dependency to anything. But that wasn’t because I knew a dependency could form easily. I was actually pretty ignorant, I didn’t know that if you used opiates and or methadone for a bunch of days or even a week or two straight that you would become physically dependent on the substance and have some pretty gnarly withdrawals without it lol. So anyways this person offered it to me everyday and I took it, the sips I was taking gradually getting bigger and bigger. While also running through some fet pressed M30s on the side.( I already know I’m so stupid I can’t believe I didn’t see this coming.) So now I am dependent on Methadone and have been for about 10 months. And my girlfriend and I also recently found out she is pregnant 15 weeks right now. And I just lost a really good job I had for over a year because they suspected I was using drugs. And I tried to get another job right away but had to pass a 10 panel drug screen and I tried but yea that didn’t go the way I planned lol. And my girlfriend and family just want me to get clean and then worry about a job anyways. I have to be clean before the baby comes or I will lose the love of my life and a lot of other people I love will not be happy with me. I had a lot of chances in the past from them even before this Methadone addiction. I know I have a drug problem I have since I first tried them, and I know the psychological side of my addiction will be something I have to fight hard and I will. Anyways though I need the absolute best advice for getting off Methadone completely as fast as possible like super super fast. Right now I take 1.5ml which I measure out in this little syringe thing so I know how much I’m on. This amount does not get me high, it is a hair away from getting me a tiny buzz so right on the line. I read online that 1ml = 10mg Of Methadone and I take 1.5ml so if that’s true I take 15mg once everyday. And I have not used any other opiates for a while. So that’s all I’m on. I am hyper sensitive to withdrawals. I start feeling super strong pain within the first 10 minutes, mainly just my stomach hurting very bad and like bubbling it feels like. I feel like I have to throw up and have come very close to it. Restless legs and arms. And I have to poop so bad and it’s never a good poop. This is about all I’ve experienced as far as withdrawals go but this is all in the first 30 minutes of w/d I’ve never went longer than that I always rush to get the Methadone in me. The only reason I’m telling what my W/Ds are like is because from what I’ve read on this site those are not Mild w/d symptoms. They are worse so I’m assuming I’m hyper sensitive to them or something I don’t know. Also from what I’ve read, even going cold turkey at 5mg of Methadone is not a good time foreal and I’m taking 15mg everyday. I can do a super fast taper down to a lower mg before going cold turkey if anyone thinks that would be a good idea just let me know the best way to do that. I just need advice on how to get off of this stuff as quick as possible like super super fast foreal because I need to go get a new job but I have to get this out of the way first. I would greatly appreciate any advice seriously.
Also going to a rehab center thing is not an option I am going to do this at home I just need to know the best and fastest way to do it.
And I know Methadone W/Ds can last awhile
I worry about myself going through it though withdrawals feel dangerous foreal.
Also when I said the person giving me Methadone is known to enable people at the beginning of this that is not me trying to dodge responsibility. I CHOSE TO DRINK THE METHADONE NOBODY MADE ME DO ANYTHING I UNDERSTAND THAT FULLY. I don’t even know why I mentioned that they enable people at the beginning it doesn’t matter I chose to drink it day after day resulting in this.
Any advice is greatly appreciated. I will be checking back in on this post and reading and responding to advice.
Also going to a rehab center thing is not an option I am going to do this at home I just need to know the best and fastest way to do it.
And I know Methadone W/Ds can last awhile
I worry about myself going through it though withdrawals feel dangerous foreal.
Also when I said the person giving me Methadone is known to enable people at the beginning of this that is not me trying to dodge responsibility. I CHOSE TO DRINK THE METHADONE NOBODY MADE ME DO ANYTHING I UNDERSTAND THAT FULLY. I don’t even know why I mentioned that they enable people at the beginning it doesn’t matter I chose to drink it day after day resulting in this.
Any advice is greatly appreciated. I will be checking back in on this post and reading and responding to advice.