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Fucked up shit youve done, drug-induced or not

OrbitalCombustion

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This is inspired by a thread called “Habit(s) you do that others find horrific”, this is a more inclusive thread, show us your real side shamelessly!

Don’t be shy!

***Disclaimer: Raw and Uncensored Reality of Human Existence, No Shame, Just Sharing my Embarrassing Habits and One-Off Oddities***

I have a terrible flatulence issue, and I actually made an X throw up while on an amp binge. It even disturbed me. I grew up being obsessed with my bodily excretions. The one that sticks with me even today is putting my index finger in my belly button and smelling it...such distinct smells.

During bouts of severe depression I can go up to 8-9 days without showering or any hygiene. I brush my teeth maybe 3-4 times a month and have gotten to points I smelled like literal garbage...probably worse.

ive never used nail clippers, never understood the need, I bite those sumabitches straight off, never had a desire to be proper about it.

i also have never been one to clean up after my ejaculatory excretions, in fact I enjoy having it on me and dry up so I can smell it the next day. Dried cum has a very unique smell as well.

During my many hundreds of amp binges, I normally spend 48-96 hours lying in one spot masturbating obsessively without drinking water or moving at all, I couldnt describe the sheer amount of time Ive spent with a sock coiled around my dick, beating it until its raw and swollen. By that time ive lost 5-10 lbs. in water weight and as you can imagine the smell could ward off a pig.

Bear with me folks, I have to get this out as I see others here who have bravely exposed their deepest secrets.

I had an X who was such a cunt I felt compelled to dip the end of her toothbrush into my asshole. Understand that my asshole is a toxic biohazard and could probably melt through metal if left long enough.

During another binger I finally manned up and tasted my own cum...not bad! A little salty but the texture was very silky, semi-enjoyable.

As you might imagine my feet can also get funky...sometimes I like to use the stinky sock as a cum sock, something about the crusty parts from dried foot sweat do it for me.

Ever had tonsil stones? The small round, greyish-white balls that your tonsils purge periodically? They are essentially old food matter that get trapped in the back of your throat and get purged. Well, I throw those suckers straight back in, and they smell godawful let me be honest.

Laundry is not much of a thing for me until they stink too bad to wear publicly.

I am naturallly a dehydrated person and my scalp gets crusty, I will scratch and rub my scalp until mounds of white flakes pile up on my shirt or bare shoulders. Lets just say I dont let the women touch the hairdo.

I used to eat my toenails then spit them out, I was oddly attracted to their smell which was from my feet sweat over the course of a day. I eventually used them to poke my girlfriend (they were very hard and sharp), were no longer together - not because of the toenails per se but she would roll me over at night yelling at me to shut up due to my sleep apnea - which she recorded me, fuck that Id beat my own ass if I were someone else.

I have drank a homeless mans piss while throwed on Wild Turkey, not hydrating like he promised but not the worse liquid ive drank.

I knowingly and willingly had sex with a sweet little angel with genital herpes, I used protection but it broke several times. I think I have Red Algae to thank for the miss.

I typically never touch my dishes until a small colony has grown. Its amazing what neglect can form in a sink. Entire civilizations have me to thank for their prosperous reign.

At one point I contracted a nasty fungus on my feet from a dick head at the gym who came into the sauna with a foot long open sore on his leg. I used to scratch my feet so hard they bled, and then some more. Ive never experienced an itch so bad.

I am a complete and utter savage when it comes to food. I have no regard to myself and my surroundings, I will gorge like an animal spilling food matter all about the area directly beneath my mouth and closest area after that. This I will pick up as post-meal crumbs. This includes an open mouth and sounds you’d expect from a hog devouring its meal.

In my last relationship, when using amps I would spend hours in the bathroom in 30-45 minute stints to avoid having to fuck her as I masturbated on the toilet to women who actually attracted me.

When I was young I had a terrible habit of holding my poop in, self-induced constipation. For some reason it felt good. This developed into me having abnormally large stools...so big that my parents kept plastic knives in the bathroom and I would have to cut them up before attempting a flush. Ultimately, after basically giving Roter Rooter a small fortune my dad bought a commercial grade toilet, you have no idea how relieved I was that a toilet could handle my shit. Do you know how embarrassing it is to clog most toilets you sit on?

My car smells so sour from all the leftover fast food bags ive left in there, and its brand new. Every time I turn on the A/C I want to dive out of my window.

When I first started using heroin I didnt want to ever leave my couch so I left milk jugs next to it which I would fill with my piss. If you know anything about this you know the piss turns damn near brown and could be used as a biological weapon.

During withdrawals of my initial heroin usage, I was so in need of a fix I would gather small traces of what appeared to be tar and bang it. Who knows what the hell Ive injected. I even searched through a vacuum full of hair and disgusting debris for ice, what a waste of time.

Ive eaten other peoples food at a bar that had been sitting there so long it looked fake.

Amidst harder times I have picked up cigarette butts from streets/ash trays/trash and smoked them.

I have stuck bananas, cucumbers and even a fucking Whizzinator up my ass when masturbating while high.

This one is hard to admit but it was from a truth or dare and there wasnt anything I wouldnt do. A friend dared me to cum on my brothers face in his sleep. He woke up with a crusty face and trust me I felt like a total POS.

The only time ive been blackout drunk ended with me soaking my friends couch in drunk piss, luckily it was his mothers because she was a stuck up bitch.

By sheer fucking coincidence or bad luck, I was watching a copperhead snake slither across the road with my brother when I kid you not a damn concrete truck drove over the poor bastard, all I heard was a loud pop noise and was blasted in my face and eyes with snake blood. It also shot onto my cars headliner. What the fuck! Why me?

I actually ate dog food on a dare as a kid, after that I fed dogs whatever the hell they wanted because fuck that salty, hard-ass bullshit.

When having sex with my X, I dont think I ever actually thought about her at all, I had to envision I was fucking a past X in order to cum. It was like fucking a guard rail you would have done the same.

I shared needles with an old friend who had giant staph infections all over his upper body. Thank God for bleach and immunity.

A theatre I used to work at, the employees would stick their bare feet into the huge popcorn seed bins below the popcorn maker. Also, please refrain from movie theatre pickles or hot dogs....just trust me on this.

At the university I attended, if I checked into a computer at the library and you hadnt signed out of your email, I would delete everything in it, complete clean up. This occurred more often than you would think.
I know Im an asshole...but can you imagine coming back to finish and print your final paper and it didnt exist? Lesson here: sign out.

I currently eat ground up ants (supplement - Polyrachis ant, Herb of Kings).

I used to bear a habit whereby I took loose hair from my scalp and bit it into small pieces and spit them out. We’ll call it quasi-trictatillomania.

I had an unnatural urge to punch myself as hard as I could, which included at one point hitting myself in the face until swollen. That is really hard to do take my word.

Ive pissed in a fair amount of pools and even shit into paper bags and lit them on fire at old high school acquaintances door steps. This is harder than you think, my shits were the size of Freebird’s largest burritos with all the fixings.

In day care around the age of three I devoured a full blown dinner napkin because I was so hungry. Paper is super bland, more of a European treat if you ask me.

I am a superb aim with my boogers, and if im around someone and they have their back turned its almost a guarantee im going to nail them in the back of the head, then laugh at them but not tell them its hanging off their hair.

On several occasions during my young drinking days I would puke all over the console of my car and fall asleep in it. Upon awakening I would be left with sun-baked throw up which forms a thick film not unlike fried eggs. The smell though, made even someone as disgusting as myself gag.

If you read all this and didnt puke Ill send over a digital certificate because you just passed getting to know the real me. There are some things you just cant tell people and ive saved you from reading that today.
 
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OrbitalCombustion

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Well to frank, my biggest claim to shame was the time I farted on a black kid while standing in line at Target
LMAO! See thats a step in the right direction. I know everyone has at least a story or two of atrocious things theyve done to others or straight neglect for themselves and their environment. The purpose of this post is to give a non-judgmental platform to confess your acts that have possibly never left your lips or mind. I certainly have nothing against anyone here and their nature.
 
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LucidSDreamr

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THERES a very big thread i think in the best of bluelight on this same topic. highlights i remember:

someone ripped the head off of a kitten

people injecting soap detergent, dust, etc while carpet surfing during tweaking

people shooting up using public toilet water
 

OrbitalCombustion

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THERES a very big thread i think in the best of bluelight on this same topic. highlights i remember:

someone ripped the head off of a kitten

people injecting soap detergent, dust, etc while carpet surfing during tweaking

people shooting up using public toilet water
My darkest demons must stay with me, the eyes of Bluelighters would be appalled by my past. Ive had therapists tell me there is nothing they can do to help me.
 

Crackedout420

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Stolen a chocolate bar from the corner store and ran out got in the cab, told the cabby to go go go, leaving my friends at the store alone without the taxi they came there in. They had to pay my chocolate bar debt or the owner wanted to call the cops.
 

sewerslide.666mg

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I stole a bass guitar from a church back in the day all pined out with my gf at the time the church left the door unlocked, I could of took way more shit, I use to feel bad about it... not so much any more
 

GetMeOutOfThisCRAP

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For some reason I made fried jelly cheerios on xanax (don't even ask). I was in full black-out mode, and decided to fry cheerios in a pan and I guess I put jelly in it for flavor? I don't remember a single second of this. Regardless none of those items were mine and I made a huge mess in the kitchen and pissed everyone off.

Moral of the story is that benzos aren't for everyone. Of course it's not too messed up, but xanax really scares me. You feel sober but to everyone else you're a retard. At least with booze you know you're messed up.
 

Xorkoth

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When I was young I had a terrible habit of holding my poop in, self-induced constipation. For some reason it felt good. This developed into me having abnormally large stools...so big that my parents kept plastic knives in the bathroom and I would have to cut them up before attempting a flush. Ultimately, after basically giving Roter Rooter a small fortune my dad bought a commercial grade toilet, you have no idea how relieved I was that a toilet could handle my shit. Do you know how embarrassing it is to clog most toilets you sit on?
LOL, my best friend's little brother was exactly like this, he'd shit about once a week and always clog the toilet, and they'd have to cut it up with knives to get it to have any hope of flushing. I remember one time my friend and I were hanging out in the basement and we heard his dad yell "holy shit Ryan, you could snowboard down that thing!!", it was probably tied for the hardest I've ever laughed. Especially when we went up and saw that it was so big it went from the bottom of the toilet all the way up to where it was resting on the seat. Eventually they got an "atomic toilet" that flushed really hard and made a lot of noise.
 

Jpinkman88

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Ohh boy... Well it's between simply stealing my best friends cell phone so i could go get meth. Orrr...
I was walking thru a park like at 3am and a guy walked past and asked what i was up to. I said nothing. He asked if i wanted to get high, i said yeah I'm down! We walked to his house and he had a fat sack. Like a 1/2 oz prolly. He was about to smoke some and i asked if it would be ok if i slammed some... He said sure, and being the broke, dumb, greedy tweaker i was, i threw more in the spoon than i would usually do, also without testing it out first for strength. I knew i shouldn't have finished pushing that plunger in. Instantly im in incapacitated ecstacy. Whole body buzzing, breathing got real deep and slow. And i couldn't see anything, all blurry. So i did the shot sitting on his bed and fell back when it hit me. He, took full advantage of that and instantly had his cock out wanking it and pulling mine down too. He put mine in his mouth and went to town, then tried to get his hard enough to put it in my ass. I didn't really resist because i couldnt see and i was just focusing on staying calm and not making my almost OD worse. He eventually gave up, and we watched porn silently...
The most shameful time though was when i decided to see if he was home again on a different night....
 

Alex_1991

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Ohh boy... Well it's between simply stealing my best friends cell phone so i could go get meth. Orrr...
I was walking thru a park like at 3am and a guy walked past and asked what i was up to. I said nothing. He asked if i wanted to get high, i said yeah I'm down! We walked to his house and he had a fat sack. Like a 1/2 oz prolly. He was about to smoke some and i asked if it would be ok if i slammed some... He said sure, and being the broke, dumb, greedy tweaker i was, i threw more in the spoon than i would usually do, also without testing it out first for strength. I knew i shouldn't have finished pushing that plunger in. Instantly im in incapacitated ecstacy. Whole body buzzing, breathing got real deep and slow. And i couldn't see anything, all blurry. So i did the shot sitting on his bed and fell back when it hit me. He, took full advantage of that and instantly had his cock out wanking it and pulling mine down too. He put mine in his mouth and went to town, then tried to get his hard enough to put it in my ass. I didn't really resist because i couldnt see and i was just focusing on staying calm and not making my almost OD worse. He eventually gave up, and we watched porn silently...
The most shameful time though was when i decided to see if he was home again on a different night....
That’s rough man. I have a similar story where in a regular hookup instead of just hooking up and smoking some I was offered a sack. I took the offer. I then came back a second time. I literally prostituted myself twice to this guy, who is now on my FB crying about how much he misses his ex who broke up with him for cheating... he wasn’t advertising like this when I met him but he was all over the apps afterward as someone “generous”. Got busted there most likely.

I felt like I sold my soul when I did this, especially when I solicited it myself the second time.
 
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This is inspired by a thread called “Habit(s) you do that others find horrific”, this is a more inclusive thread, show us your real side shamelessly!

Don’t be shy!

***Disclaimer: Raw and Uncensored Reality of Human Existence, No Shame, Just Sharing my Embarrassing Habits and One-Off Oddities***

I have a terrible flatulence issue, and I actually made an X throw up while on an amp binge. It even disturbed me. I grew up being obsessed with my bodily excretions. The one that sticks with me even today is putting my index finger in my belly button and smelling it...such distinct smells.

During bouts of severe depression I can go up to 8-9 days without showering or any hygiene. I brush my teeth maybe 3-4 times a month and have gotten to points I smelled like literal garbage...probably worse.

ive never used nail clippers, never understood the need, I bite those sumabitches straight off, never had a desire to be proper about it.

i also have never been one to clean up after my ejaculatory excretions, in fact I enjoy having it on me and dry up so I can smell it the next day. Dried cum has a very unique smell as well.

During my many hundreds of amp binges, I normally spend 48-96 hours lying in one spot masturbating obsessively without drinking water or moving at all, I couldnt describe the sheer amount of time Ive spent with a sock coiled around my dick, beating it until its raw and swollen. By that time ive lost 5-10 lbs. in water weight and as you can imagine the smell could ward off a pig.

Bear with me folks, I have to get this out as I see others here who have bravely exposed their deepest secrets.

I had an X who was such a cunt I felt compelled to dip the end of her toothbrush into my asshole. Understand that my asshole is a toxic biohazard and could probably melt through metal if left long enough.

During another binger I finally manned up and tasted my own cum...not bad! A little salty but the texture was very silky, semi-enjoyable.

As you might imagine my feet can also get funky...sometimes I like to use the stinky sock as a cum sock, something about the crusty parts from dried foot sweat do it for me.

Ever had tonsil stones? The small round, greyish-white balls that your tonsils purge periodically? They are essentially old food matter that get trapped in the back of your throat and get purged. Well, I throw those suckers straight back in, and they smell godawful let me be honest.

Laundry is not much of a thing for me until they stink too bad to wear publicly.

I am naturallly a dehydrated person and my scalp gets crusty, I will scratch and rub my scalp until mounds of white flakes pile up on my shirt or bare shoulders. Lets just say I dont let the women touch the hairdo.

I used to eat my toenails then spit them out, I was oddly attracted to their smell which was from my feet sweat over the course of a day. I eventually used them to poke my girlfriend (they were very hard and sharp), were no longer together - not because of the toenails per se but she would roll me over at night yelling at me to shut up due to my sleep apnea - which she recorded me, fuck that Id beat my own ass if I were someone else.

I have drank a homeless mans piss while throwed on Wild Turkey, not hydrating like he promised but not the worse liquid ive drank.

I knowingly and willingly had sex with a sweet little angel with genital herpes, I used protection but it broke several times. I think I have Red Algae to thank for the miss.

I typically never touch my dishes until a small colony has grown. Its amazing what neglect can form in a sink. Entire civilizations have me to thank for their prosperous reign.

At one point I contracted a nasty fungus on my feet from a dick head at the gym who came into the sauna with a foot long open sore on his leg. I used to scratch my feet so hard they bled, and then some more. Ive never experienced an itch so bad.

I am a complete and utter savage when it comes to food. I have no regard to myself and my surroundings, I will gorge like an animal spilling food matter all about the area directly beneath my mouth and closest area after that. This I will pick up as post-meal crumbs. This includes an open mouth and sounds you’d expect from a hog devouring its meal.

In my last relationship, when using amps I would spend hours in the bathroom in 30-45 minute stints to avoid having to fuck her as I masturbated on the toilet to women who actually attracted me.

When I was young I had a terrible habit of holding my poop in, self-induced constipation. For some reason it felt good. This developed into me having abnormally large stools...so big that my parents kept plastic knives in the bathroom and I would have to cut them up before attempting a flush. Ultimately, after basically giving Roter Rooter a small fortune my dad bought a commercial grade toilet, you have no idea how relieved I was that a toilet could handle my shit. Do you know how embarrassing it is to clog most toilets you sit on?

My car smells so sour from all the leftover fast food bags ive left in there, and its brand new. Every time I turn on the A/C I want to dive out of my window.

When I first started using heroin I didnt want to ever leave my couch so I left milk jugs next to it which I would fill with my piss. If you know anything about this you know the piss turns damn near brown and could be used as a biological weapon.

During withdrawals of my initial heroin usage, I was so in need of a fix I would gather small traces of what appeared to be tar and bang it. Who knows what the hell Ive injected. I even searched through a vacuum full of hair and disgusting debris for ice, what a waste of time.

Ive eaten other peoples food at a bar that had been sitting there so long it looked fake.

Amidst harder times I have picked up cigarette butts from streets/ash trays/trash and smoked them.

I have stuck bananas, cucumbers and even a fucking Whizzinator up my ass when masturbating while high.

This one is hard to admit but it was from a truth or dare and there wasnt anything I wouldnt do. A friend dared me to cum on my brothers face in his sleep. He woke up with a crusty face and trust me I felt like a total POS.

The only time ive been blackout drunk ended with me soaking my friends couch in drunk piss, luckily it was his mothers because she was a stuck up bitch.

By sheer fucking coincidence or bad luck, I was watching a copperhead snake slither across the road with my brother when I kid you not a damn concrete truck drove over the poor bastard, all I heard was a loud pop noise and was blasted in my face and eyes with snake blood. It also shot onto my cars headliner. What the fuck! Why me?

I actually ate dog food on a dare as a kid, after that I fed dogs whatever the hell they wanted because fuck that salty, hard-ass bullshit.

When having sex with my X, I dont think I ever actually thought about her at all, I had to envision I was fucking a past X in order to cum. It was like fucking a guard rail you would have done the same.

I shared needles with an old friend who had giant staph infections all over his upper body. Thank God for bleach and immunity.

A theatre I used to work at, the employees would stick their bare feet into the huge popcorn seed bins below the popcorn maker. Also, please refrain from movie theatre pickles or hot dogs....just trust me on this.

At the university I attended, if I checked into a computer at the library and you hadnt signed out of your email, I would delete everything in it, complete clean up. This occurred more often than you would think.
I know Im an asshole...but can you imagine coming back to finish and print your final paper and it didnt exist? Lesson here: sign out.

I currently eat ground up ants (supplement - Polyrachis ant, Herb of Kings).

I used to bear a habit whereby I took loose hair from my scalp and bit it into small pieces and spit them out. We’ll call it quasi-trictatillomania.

I had an unnatural urge to punch myself as hard as I could, which included at one point hitting myself in the face until swollen. That is really hard to do take my word.

Ive pissed in a fair amount of pools and even shit into paper bags and lit them on fire at old high school acquaintances door steps. This is harder than you think, my shits were the size of Freebird’s largest burritos with all the fixings.

In day care around the age of three I devoured a full blown dinner napkin because I was so hungry. Paper is super bland, more of a European treat if you ask me.

I am a superb aim with my boogers, and if im around someone and they have their back turned its almost a guarantee im going to nail them in the back of the head, then laugh at them but not tell them its hanging of their hair.

On several occasions during my young drinking days I would puke all over the console of my car and fall asleep in it. Upon awakening I would be left with sun-baked throw up which forms a thick film not unlike fried eggs. The smell though, made even someone as disgusting as myself gag.

If you read all this and didnt puke Ill send over a digital certificate because you just passed getting to know the real me. There are some things you just cant tell people and ive saved you from reading that today.
I never committed a crime in my whole life. 😎😊🙏✨
 
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