Of all the Entheogens in my 30 years of working with them, Methoxetamine has been without a doubt THE most healing upon my life. More so than MDMA, Psilocybin or LSD did MXE force me to confront myself andf my issues in brutal honesty, more so than with any other Entheogen did I suffer, but moreover moreso than with any other Entheogen did I soar to personal victories and success.
8 years of MXE - I won't ever take a dose again because I ended my MXE career with a 100 hour trip, 50 hours of rock bottom, followed by 50 hours highest heaven, then sleeping like a log and proceeding to have a month of spiritual ecstasy because of the completion of the voyage, that tied up all the loose ends.
Nothing can top this and the notion of trying to top it or fizzle after such a grand experience, would be obscene.
And you know what? MXE addiction forced me to stick with the program, as the going got rough, but when The Final Trip had been tripped the entire addiction and all of its craving had been wisped away, for now 10 months and counting. Even the addiction turned out to be a feature, not a bug, because it compelled me when there was more work to be done and it painlessly left me when the work was done.
I went through the biographic phase, the perinatal matrices and the ego death sequences, delivering me into the transpersonal realm - exactly like LSD did for Grof.
When I went in I went in for 30 hour sessions, and the final booster dose my spirit guide dubbed "the 21 gun salute" and made it the most spectacular.
Here's to F&B and his MXE!
If anyone likes a peek, all these 8 years I have been writing frequent MXE trip reports, documenting the progress. Anyone interested can join the Shroomery for journal access and read the lot of them, in chronological order, in my journal thread:
My Journeys to the Holey Land