You know even to this day I've never tried crack more than once and never had any desire or intent to I'm so glad I did not because I have a feeling I wouldn't be as stable as I am now and my life and problems would have been even worse I think the steps to total rock bottom beyond all is when you take heroin then crack and heroin then inject crack and heroin not saying it's impossible not to bounce back from if your motivated and strong enough but I sure as he'll am glad I don't have to bounce back from that hell
You know I used to go to a dealer who was an 20 year injecting addict and alcoholic but I used to buy weed off him and he knew my mate so I knew he wouldn't rip me off anyway you should see some of the shells of what were once humans that come round his to score man I mean he looks a bit worse for wear some days especially if he has any clothes off but he don't look to bad and he's got some fat on him probably because he deals he never has to really running out but some of these slags man I wouldn't trust them with a penny they always try to talk all nice and innocently cute and that though and try and he flirty and I just smile and act like I buy it because some times some people I prefer not to let them know I'm On the ball as much when I was younger really younger that used to be my biggest weakness I could never lie if I did something wrong it was written on my face
but as soon as I got involved with drugs and seen that side of the world I just sort of changed my whole attitude and demeanour over night one good thing is when you been doing this shit for so many years you do gain some invaluable street knowledge which I bet you know to you also see what people are capable of and learn all the little street blags and scams when it comes to drugs etc btw sorry for writing so much I am a bit drunk lol I gotta have my methadone to im gonna be leen loool