Day 12. Better night last night and with no sleep meds. Slept from around midnight to 4:30 which doesn't sound great but I feel pretty good. Legs seem to be less achy/tired today and I was on them a lot yesterday. Had kind of an adrenaline rush and decided the house needed cleaning really bad. Spent all day working on it--and not just the "straightened things up" kind of clean, but the "friends coming in to town to stay with you" kind of clean. Even washed the windows. Wife came home and asked if we had people coming over. Anyway, not that I like to clean or anything, but it was something to do and kept my mind off of how I feel. Supposed to hit mid 40's today so at least most of the snow will be gone--no sign of the sun however. Seem to be having a lot more drainage/congestion and a dull headache the past two days which seems odd--kind of thought I was past that. Maybe the weather causing sinus pressure just to screw with me even more. Also, not feeling much anxiety/depression and can think clearly, but still feel "off" mentally (if that makes any sense). Almost like a slight fog is still around my brain.
Going to go do some car maintenance today and see how that goes. Chills/cold feeling come and go but seem to be diminishing a bit each day. Can't say I feel "normal" yet but feel like I've got this again. I hate that word "again"..just reminds me that I was already over this shit and still jumped back into it. Try not to kick myself too hard about it, but I do feel stupid.
On a bright note, went ahead and booked a vacation for the wife and I to Gulf Shores for the end of the month. Hopefully by then I should be feeling better. Just got tired of looking at the crappy Midwestern weather and the long term forecast says March is going to suck and the groundhog-predicted early Spring is probably not going to happen. Hard to believe a rodent could be wrong about the forecast...So, fuck-it, if the sun doesn't want to come to me, I will go find it.
