After I took the temazepam early this morning, I went to my raccoon's room to spend time with him. I fell asleep on the bottom bunk bed and my mom kept checking on me and trying to wake me up. I don't remember any of that. My coon stayed next to me until an hour or so before I woke up when my mom came in.
Got the hydrocodone, no more withdrawal and I am in a good mood after that 4th plateau DXM trip I took last night
As I am typing, my new glass pipe lays beside me with a chunk of methamphetamine in it. I will smoke it as soon as I submit this message. This should feel good
The rest of the meth is locked in a new safe that I do not know how to open without the keys so I can't do enough to make my depression get a lot worse. I don't know if I can figure out how to open it without the keys or not. For now, I am not going to try but I am sure I'll figure it out when I really want in bad. But the rules are my drugs get locked up and I am not allowed to take huge amounts out but I do get some drugs without anyone knowing sometimes and some good pharmaceuticals aren't even locked up. I occasionally find the keys though. This action with the safe is a form of harm reduction, and I think maybe some other people may be able and willing to do this if they have someone in their house or they can get to do this and they can trust to keep the keys.
Update 3:28 AM my local time:
Guess the keys will be hidden tomorrow. I didn't do anything too naughty though, just one big hit of meth (most of what I put in the pipe at the start is still in it) and 15mg hydrocodone. Checked my blood pressure to see if I needed to take one of these guanfacine pills I got out of someone's trash while I was getting computer parts and shit like that they threw away to lower my blood pressure (it is an alpha 2a receptor agonist used to treat hypertension and ADHD, and it is apparently also an anxiolytic and may be useful for treatment of drug withdrawal symptoms. I figured it would be completely worthless because I had never heard of it before) but my BP was 154/96 pulse 89 so I will not use it because there were only six pills in the bottle. It might mix well with opiates as it is sort of like clonidine if I understand it right.
I realized a little while ago that I had not eaten anything in the last 3 days so I decided to fix something to eat. Kind of strange that I choose to eat after smoking meth instead of before smoking it and I hadn't smoked weed to give me the munchies or anything.
